{"id":4371,"date":"2026-01-04T00:21:56","date_gmt":"2026-01-04T00:21:56","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/epub-book.com\/download\/the-sinner-gerritsen-tess\/"},"modified":"2026-01-04T00:21:56","modified_gmt":"2026-01-04T00:21:56","slug":"the-sinner-gerritsen-tess","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/epub-book.com\/download\/the-sinner-gerritsen-tess\/","title":{"rendered":"The Sinner – Gerritsen, Tess"},"content":{"rendered":"
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\nTESS GERRITSEN<\/span>\n<\/p>\n

BALLANTINE<\/span>BOOKS<\/span>\u2022 NEW <\/span>YORK<\/span><\/p>\n

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To my mother, Ruby J. C. Tom, with love.<\/p>\n

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The Sinner<\/span> is a work of fiction. Names, places, and incidents either are a product of the author\u2019s imagination or are used fictitiously. <\/p>\n


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A Ballantine Book<\/p>\n

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Copyright \u00a9 2003 by Tess Gerritsen<\/p>\n


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All rights reserved under International and Pan-American Copyright Conventions. Published in the United States by The Random House Publishing Group, a division of Random House, Inc., New York, and simultaneously in Canada by Random House of Canada Limited, Toronto.<\/p>\n


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v1.1 Spacing and other small errors fixed by Raito<\/p>\n

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ACKNOWLEDGMENTS<\/span><\/p>\n

My warmest thanks to:<\/p>\n

Peter Mars and Bruce Blake, for their insights into the Boston Police Department.<\/p>\n

Margaret Greenwald, M.D., for allowing me a look into the medical examiner\u2019s world.<\/p>\n

Gina Centrello, for her unflagging enthusiasm.<\/p>\n

Linda Marrow, every writer\u2019s dream editor.<\/p>\n

Selina Walker, my miracle worker on the other side of the Pond. <\/p>\n

Jane Berkey, Donald Cleary, and the wonderful team at the Jane Rotrosen Agency.<\/p>\n

Meg Ruley, my literary agent, champion, and guiding light. Nobody does it better.<\/p>\n

And to my husband Jacob, still my best friend after all these years.<\/p>\n

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PROLOGUE<\/span><\/p>\n

\nAndhra Pradesh<\/span>
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\nIndia<\/span>\n<\/p>\n

THE DRIVER REFUSED<\/span> to take him any farther.<\/p>\n

A mile back, right after they passed the abandoned Octagon chemical plant, the pavement had given way to an overgrown dirt road. Now the driver complained that his car was getting scraped by underbrush, and with the recent rains, there were muddy spots where their tires could get mired. And where would that leave them? Stranded, 150 kilometers from Hyderabad. Howard Redfield listened to the long litany of objections, and knew they were merely a pretext for the real reason the driver did not wish to proceed. No man easily admits that he is afraid.<\/p>\n

Redfield had no choice; from here, he would have to walk.<\/p>\n

He leaned forward to speak in the driver\u2019s ear, and caught a gamey whiff of the man\u2019s sweat. In the rearview mirror, where rattling beads dangled, he saw the driver\u2019s dark eyes staring at him. \u201cYou\u2019ll wait here for me, won\u2019t you?\u201d Redfield asked. \u201cStay right here, on the road.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cHow long?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cAn hour, maybe. As long as it takes.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cI tell you, there is nothing to see. No one is there anymore.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cJust wait here, okay? Wait. I\u2019ll pay you double when we get back to the city.\u201d<\/p>\n

Redfield grabbed his knapsack, stepped out of the air-conditioned car, and was instantly swimming in a sea of humidity. He hadn\u2019t worn a knapsack since he was a college kid, wandering through Europe on a shoestring, and it felt a little would-be, at age fifty-one, to be slinging one over his flabby shoulders. But he was damned if he went anywhere in this steamhouse of a country without his bottle of purified drinking water and his insect repellant and his sunscreen and diarrhea medicine. And his camera; he could not leave behind the camera.<\/p>\n

He stood sweating in the late afternoon heat, looked up at the sky, and thought: Great, the sun is going down, and all the mosquitoes come out at dusk. Here comes dinner, you little buggers.<\/p>\n

He set off down the road. Tall grass obscured the path, and he stumbled into a rut, his walking shoes sinking ankle-deep in mud. Clearly no vehicle had come this way in months, and Mother Nature had quickly moved in to reclaim her territory. He paused, panting and swatting at insects. Glancing back, he saw that the car was no longer in sight, and that made him uneasy. Could he trust the driver to wait for him? The man had been reluctant to bring him this far, and had grown more and more nervous as they\u2019d bounced along the increasingly rough road. Bad people were out here, the driver had said, and terrible things happened in this area. They could both disappear, and who would bother to come looking for them?<\/p>\n

Redfield pressed onward.<\/p>\n

The humid air seemed to close in around him. He could hear the water bottle sloshing in his knapsack, and already he was thirsty, but he did not stop to drink. With only an hour or so left of daylight, he had to keep moving. Insects hummed in the grass, and he heard what he thought must be birds calling in the canopy of trees all around him, but it was unlike any birdsong he\u2019d ever heard before. Everything about this country felt strange and surreal, and he trudged in a dreamlike trance, sweat trickling down his chest. The rhythm of his own breathing accelerated with each step. It should be only a mile and a half, according to the map, but he seemed to walk forever, and even a fresh application of insect repellant did not discourage the mosquitoes. His ears were filled with their buzzing, and his face was an itching mask of hives.<\/p>\n

He stumbled into another deep rut and landed on his knees in tall grass. Spat out a mouthful of vegetation as he crouched there, catching his breath, so discouraged and exhausted that he decided it was time to turn around. To get back on that plane to Cincinnati with his tail tucked between his legs. Cowardice, after all, was far safer. And more comfortable.<\/p>\n

He heaved a sigh, planted his hand on the ground to push himself to his feet, and went very still, staring down at the grass. Something gleamed there among the green blades, something metallic. It was only a cheap tin button, but at that moment, it struck him as a sign. A talisman. He slipped it in his pocket, rose to his feet, and kept walking.<\/p>\n

Only a few hundred feet farther, the road suddenly opened up into a large clearing, encircled by tall trees. A lone structure stood at the far edge, a squat cinder block building with a rusting tin roof. Branches clattered and grass waved in the gentle wind.<\/p>\n

This is the place, he thought. This is where it happened.<\/p>\n

His breathing suddenly seemed too loud. Heart pounding, he slipped off his knapsack, unzipped it, and pulled out his camera. Document everything, he thought. Octagon will try to make you out as a liar. They will do everything they can to discredit you, so you have to be ready to defend yourself. You have to prove that you are telling the truth.<\/p>\n

He moved into the clearing, toward a heap of blackened branches. Nudging the twigs with his shoe, he stirred up the stench of charred wood. He backed away, a chill crawling up his spine.<\/p>\n

It was the remains of a funeral pyre.<\/p>\n

With sweating hands, he took off his lens cap and began to shoot photos. Eye pressed to the viewfinder, he snapped image after image. The burned remains of a hut. A child\u2019s sandal, lying in the grass. A bright fragment of cloth, torn from a sari. Everywhere he looked, he saw Death.<\/p>\n

He swung to the right, a tapestry of green sweeping past his viewfinder, and was about to click off another photo when his finger froze on the button. <\/p>\n

A figure skittered past the edge of the frame.<\/p>\n

He lowered the camera from his eye and straightened, staring at the trees. He saw nothing now, only the sway of branches.<\/p>\n

There\u2014was that a flash of movement, at the very periphery of his vision? He\u2019d caught only a glimpse of something dark, bobbing among the trees. A monkey?<\/p>\n

He had to keep shooting. The daylight was going fast.<\/p>\n

He walked past a stone well and crossed toward the tin-roofed building, his pants swishing through grass, glancing left and right as he moved. The trees seemed to have eyes, and they were watching him. As he drew near the building, he saw that the walls were scorched by fire. In front of the doorway was a mound of ashes and blackened branches. Another funeral pyre.<\/p>\n

He stepped around it, and looked into the doorway.<\/p>\n

At first, he could make out very little in that gloomy interior. Daylight was rapidly fading, and inside, it was even darker, a palette of blacks and grays. He paused for a moment as his eyes adjusted. With growing bewilderment, he registered the glint of fresh water in an earthenware jar. The scent of spices. How could this be?<\/p>\n

Behind him, a twig snapped.<\/p>\n

He spun around.<\/p>\n

A lone figure was standing in the clearing. All around them, the trees had gone still, and even the birds were silent. The figure came toward him, moving with a strange and jerky gait, until it stood only a few feet away.<\/p>\n

The camera tumbled from Redfield\u2019s hands. He backed away, staring in horror.<\/p>\n

It was a woman. And she had no face.<\/p>\n

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ONE<\/span><\/p>\n

THEY CALLED HER<\/span> the Queen of the Dead.<\/p>\n

Though no one ever said it to her face, Dr. Maura Isles sometimes heard the nickname murmured in her wake as she traveled the grim triangle of her job between courtroom and death scene and morgue. Sometimes she would detect a note of dark sarcasm: Ha ha, there she goes, our Goth goddess, out to collect fresh subjects.<\/span> Sometimes the whispers held a tremolo of disquiet, like the murmurs of the pious as an unholy stranger passes among them. It was the disquiet of those who could not understand why she chose to walk in Death\u2019s footsteps. Does she enjoy it, they wonder? Does the touch of cold flesh, the stench of decay, hold such allure for her that she has turned her back on the living? They think this cannot be normal, and they cast uneasy glances her way, noting details that only reinforce their beliefs that she is an odd duck. The ivory skin, the black hair with its blunt Cleopatra cut. The red slash of lipstick. Who else wears lipstick to a death scene? Most of all, it\u2019s her calmness that disturbs them, her coolly regal gaze as she surveys the horrors that they themselves can barely stomach. Unlike them, she does not avert her gaze. Instead she bends close and stares, touches. She sniffs.<\/p>\n

And later, under bright lights in her autopsy lab, she cuts.<\/p>\n

She was cutting now, her scalpel slicing through chilled skin, through subcutaneous fat that gleamed a greasy yellow. A man who liked his hamburgers and fries, she thought as she used pruning shears to cut through the ribs and lifted the triangular shield of breastbone the way one opens a cupboard door, to reveal its treasured contents.<\/p>\n

The heart lay cradled in its spongey bed of lungs. For fifty-nine years, it had pumped blood through the body of Mr. Samuel Knight. It had grown with him, aged with him, transforming, as he had, from the lean muscle of youth to this well-larded flesh. All pumps eventually fail, and so had Mr. Knight\u2019s as he\u2019d sat in his Boston hotel room with the TV turned on and a glass of whiskey from the minibar sitting beside him on the nightstand.<\/p>\n

She did not pause to wonder what his final thoughts might have been, or whether he had felt pain or fear. Though she explored his most intimate recesses, though she flayed open his skin and held his heart in her hands, Mr. Samuel Knight remained a stranger to her, a silent and undemanding one, willingly offering up his secrets. The dead are patient. They do not complain, nor threaten, nor cajole. <\/p>\n

The dead do not hurt you; only the living do.<\/p>\n

She worked with serene efficiency, resecting the thoracic viscera, laying the freed heart on the cutting board. Outside, the first snow of December swirled, white flakes whispering against windows and slithering down alleys. But here in the lab, the only sounds were of running water and the hiss of the ventilator fan. Her assistant Yoshima moved in uncanny silence, anticipating her requests, materializing wherever she needed him. They had worked together only a year and a half, yet already they functioned like a single organism, linked by the telepathy of two logical minds. She did not need to ask him to redirect the lamp; it was already done, the light shining down on the dripping heart, a pair of scissors held out and waiting for her to take them.<\/p>\n

The darkly mottled wall of the right ventricle, and the white apical scar, told her this heart\u2019s sad story. An old myocardial infarction, months or even years old, had already destroyed part of the left ventricular wall. Then, sometime in the last twenty-four hours, a fresh infarction had occurred. A thrombus had blocked off the right coronary artery, strangling the flow of blood to the muscle of the right ventricle.<\/p>\n

She resected tissue for histology, already knowing what she would see under the microscope. Coagulation and necrosis. The invasion of white cells, moving in like a defending army. Perhaps Mr. Samuel Knight thought the discomfort in his chest was just a bout of indigestion. Too much lunch, shouldn\u2019t have eaten all those onions. Maybe Pepto-Bismol would do the trick. Or perhaps there\u2019d been more ominous signs which he chose to ignore: the weight on his chest, the shortness of breath. Surely it did not occur to him that he was having a heart attack.<\/p>\n

That, a day later, he would be dead of an arrhythmia.<\/p>\n

The heart now lay open and sectioned on the board. She looked at the torso, missing all its organs. So ends your business trip to Boston, she thought. No surprises here. No foul play, except for the abuse you heaped on your own body, Mr. Knight.<\/p>\n

The intercom buzzed. \u201cDr. Isles?\u201d It was Louise, her secretary.<\/p>\n

\u201cYes?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cDetective Rizzoli\u2019s on line two for you. Can you take the call?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cI\u2019ll pick up.\u201d<\/p>\n

Maura peeled off her gloves and crossed to the wall phone. Yoshima, who\u2019d been rinsing instruments in the sink, shut off the faucet. He turned to watch her with his silent tiger eyes, already knowing what a call from Rizzoli signified.<\/p>\n

When at last Maura hung up, she saw the question in his gaze.<\/p>\n

\u201cIt\u2019s starting early today,\u201d she said. Then she stripped off her gown and left the morgue, to usher another subject into her realm.<\/p>\n


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The morning\u2019s snowfall had turned into a treacherous mix of both snow and sleet, and the city plows were nowhere in sight. She drove cautiously along Jamaica Riverway, tires swishing through deep slush, windshield wipers scraping at hoar-frosted glass. This was the first winter storm of the season, and drivers had yet to adjust to the conditions. Already, several casualties had slid off the road, and she passed a parked police cruiser, its lights flashing, the patrolman standing beside a tow truck driver as they both gazed at a car that had tipped into a ditch.<\/p>\n

The tires of her Lexus began to slide sideways, the front bumper veering toward oncoming traffic. Panicking, she hit the brakes and felt the vehicle\u2019s automatic skid control kick into action. She pulled the car back into her lane. Screw this, she thought, her heart thudding. I\u2019m moving back to California. She slowed to a timid crawl, not caring who honked at her or how much traffic she held up. Go ahead and pass me, idiots. I\u2019ve met too many drivers like you on my slab. <\/p>\n

The road took her into Jamaica Plain, a west Boston neighborhood of stately old mansions and broad lawns, of serene parks and river walks. In the summertime, this would be a leafy retreat from the noise and heat of urban Boston, but today, under bleak skies, with winds sweeping across barren lawns, it was a desolate neighborhood.<\/p>\n

The address she sought seemed the most forbidding of all, the building set back behind a high stone wall over which a smothering tangle of ivy had scrambled. A barricade to keep out the world, she thought. From the street, all she could see were the gothic peaks of a slate roof and one towering gable window which peered back at her like a dark eye. A patrol car parked near the front gate confirmed that she had found the correct address. Only a few other vehicles had arrived so far\u2014the shock troops before the larger army of crime-scene techs arrived.<\/p>\n

She parked across the street and braced herself against the first blast of wind. When she stepped out of the car, her shoe skidded right out from under her, and she barely caught herself, hanging onto the vehicle door. Dragging herself back to her feet, she felt icy water trickle down her calves from the soaked hem of her coat, which had fallen into the slush. For a few seconds she just stood there, sleet stinging her face, shocked by how quickly it had all happened.<\/p>\n

She glanced across the street at the patrolman sitting in his cruiser, and saw that he was watching her, and had surely seen her slip. Her pride stung, she grabbed her kit from the front seat, swung the door shut, and made her way, with as much dignity as she could muster, across the rime-slicked road.<\/p>\n

\u201cYou okay, Doc?\u201d the patrolman called out through his car window, a concerned inquiry she really did not welcome.<\/p>\n

\u201cI\u2019m fine.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cWatch yourself in those shoes. It\u2019s even more slippery in the courtyard.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cWhere\u2019s Detective Rizzoli?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cThey\u2019re in the chapel.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cAnd where\u2019s that?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cCan\u2019t miss it. It\u2019s the door with the big cross on it.\u201d<\/p>\n

She continued to the front gate, but found it locked. An iron bell hung on the wall; she tugged on the pull rope, and the medieval clang slowly faded into the softer tick, tick of falling sleet. Just beneath the bell was a bronze plaque, its inscription partially obscured by a strand of brown ivy.<\/p>\n

Graystones Abbey
The Sisters of Our Lady of Divine Light<\/p>\n

\n\u201cThe harvest is indeed great, but the laborers are few. <\/span>\n<\/p>\n

\nPray, therefore, to send laborers<\/span>\n<\/p>\n

\nInto the harvest.\u201d<\/span>\n<\/p>\n

On the other side of the gate, a woman swathed in black suddenly appeared, her approach so silent that Maura gave a start when she saw the face staring at her through the bars. It was an ancient face, so deeply lined it seemed to be collapsing in on itself, but the eyes were bright and sharp as a bird\u2019s. The nun did not speak, posing her question with only her gaze.<\/p>\n

\u201cI\u2019m Dr. Isles from the Medical Examiner\u2019s office,\u201d said Maura. \u201cThe police called me here.\u201d<\/p>\n

The gate squealed open.<\/p>\n

Maura stepped into the courtyard. \u201cI\u2019m looking for Detective Rizzoli. I believe she\u2019s in the chapel.\u201d<\/p>\n

The nun pointed directly across the courtyard. Then she turned and shuffled slowly into the nearest doorway, abandoning Maura to make her own way to the chapel.<\/p>\n

Snowflakes whirled and danced amid needles of sleet, like white butterflies circling their lead-footed cousins. The most direct route was to cross the courtyard, but the stones were glazed with ice, and Maura\u2019s shoes, with their gripless soles, had already proven no match for such a surface. She ducked instead beneath the narrow covered walkway that ran along the courtyard\u2019s perimeter. Though protected from the sleet, she found little shelter here from the wind, which sliced through her coat. She was shocked by the cold, reminded yet again of how cruel December in Boston could be. For most of her life, she had lived in San Francisco, where a glimpse of snowflakes was a rare delight, not a torment, like these stinging nettles that swirled under the overhang to nip her face. She veered closer to the building and hugged her coat tighter as she passed darkened windows. From beyond the gate came the faint swish of traffic on Jamaica Riverway. But here, within these walls, she heard only silence. Except for the elderly nun who had admitted her, the compound seemed abandoned.<\/p>\n

So it was a shock when she saw three faces staring at her from one of the windows. The nuns stood in a silent tableau, like dark-robed ghosts behind glass, watching the intruder make her way deeper into their sanctuary. Their gazes swerved in unison, following her as she moved past.<\/p>\n

The entrance to the chapel was draped with a strand of yellow crime scene tape, which had sagged in the doorway and hung crusted with sleet. She lifted the tape to step beneath it and pushed open the door.<\/p>\n

A camera flash exploded in her eyes and she froze, the door slowly hissing shut behind her, blinking away the afterimage that had seared her retinas. As her vision cleared, she saw rows of wooden pews, whitewashed walls, and at the front of the chapel, an enormous crucifix hanging above the altar. It was a coldly austere room, its gloom deepened by the stained glass windows, which admitted only a murky smear of light.<\/p>\n

\u201cHold it right there. Be careful where you step,\u201d said the photographer.<\/p>\n

Maura looked down at the stone floor and saw blood. And footprints\u2014a confusing jumble of them, along with medical debris. Syringe caps and torn wrappings. The leavings of an ambulance crew. But no body.<\/p>\n

Her gaze moved in a wider circle, taking in the piece of trampled white cloth lying in the aisle, the splashes of red on the pews. She could see her own breath in this frigid room, and the temperature seemed to drop even colder, her chill deepening as she read the bloodstains, saw the successive splashes moving up the rows of benches, and understood what had happened here.<\/p>\n

The photographer began to click off more shots, each one a visual assault on Maura\u2019s eyes.<\/p>\n

\u201cHey Doc?\u201d At the front of the chapel, a mop of dark hair popped up as Detective Jane Rizzoli rose to her feet and waved. \u201cThe vic\u2019s up here.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cWhat about this blood here, by the door?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cThat\u2019s from the other victim, Sister Ursula. Med-Q boys took her to St. Francis. There\u2019s more blood along that center aisle, and some footprints we\u2019re trying to preserve, so you\u2019d better circle around to your left. Stick close to the wall.\u201d<\/p>\n

Maura paused to pull on paper shoe-covers, then edged along the perimeter of the room, hugging the wall. Only as she cleared the front row of pews did she see the nun\u2019s body, lying faceup, the fabric of her habit a black pool blending into a larger lake of red. Both hands had already been bagged to preserve evidence. The victim\u2019s youth took Maura by surprise. The nun who had let her in the gate, and those she had seen through the window, had all been elderly. This woman was far younger. It was an ethereal face, her pale blue eyes frozen in a look of eerie serenity. Her head was bare, the blond hair shorn to barely an inch long. Every terrible blow was recorded in the torn scalp, the misshapen crown.<\/p>\n

\u201cHer name\u2019s Camille Maginnes. Sister Camille. Hometown, Hyannisport,\u201d said Rizzoli, sounding Dragnet-cool and businesslike. \u201cShe was the first novice they\u2019ve had here in fifteen years. Planned to take her final vows in May.\u201d She paused, then added: \u201cShe was only twenty,\u201d and her anger cracked through the facade.<\/p>\n

\u201cShe\u2019s so young.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cYeah. Looks like he beat the shit out of her.\u201d<\/p>\n

Maura pulled on gloves and crouched down to study the destruction. The death instrument had left raggedly linear lacerations on the scalp. Fragments of bone protruded through torn skin, and a clump of gray matter had oozed out. Though the facial skin was largely intact, it was suffused a dark purple.<\/p>\n

\u201cShe died facedown. Who turned her onto her back?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cThe sisters who found her,\u201d said Rizzoli. \u201cThey were looking for a pulse.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cWhat time were the victims discovered?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cAbout eight this morning.\u201d Rizzoli glanced at her watch. \u201cNearly two hours ago.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cDo you know what happened? What did the sisters tell you?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cIt\u2019s been hard getting anything useful out of them. There are only fourteen nuns left now, and they\u2019re all in a state of shock. Here they think they\u2019re safe. Protected by God. And then some lunatic breaks in.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cThere are signs of forced entry?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cNo, but it wouldn\u2019t be all that hard to get into the compound. There\u2019s ivy growing all over the walls\u2014you could hop right over without too much trouble. And there\u2019s also a back gate, leading to a field, where they have their gardens. A perp could get in that way, too.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cFootprints?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cA few in here. But outside, they\u2019d be pretty much buried under snow.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cSo we don\u2019t know that he actually broke in. He could have been admitted through that front gate.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cIt\u2019s a cloistered order, Doc. No one\u2019s allowed inside the gates except for the parish priest, when he comes in to say Mass and hear confession. And there\u2019s also a lady who works in the rectory. They let her bring her little girl when she can\u2019t get child care. But that\u2019s it. No one else comes in without the Abbess\u2019s approval. And the sisters stay inside. They leave only for doctors\u2019 appointments and family emergencies.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cWho have you spoken to so far?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cThe Abbess, Mother Mary Clement. And the two nuns who found the victims.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cWhat did they tell you?\u201d<\/p>\n

Rizzoli shook her head. \u201cSaw nothing, heard nothing. I don\u2019t think the others will be able to tell us much, either.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cWhy not?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cHave you seen how old they are?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cIt doesn\u2019t mean they don\u2019t have their wits about them.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cOne of them\u2019s gorked out by a stroke and two of them have Alzheimer\u2019s. Most of them sleep in rooms facing away from the courtyard, so they wouldn\u2019t have seen a thing.\u201d<\/p>\n

At first Maura simply crouched over Camille\u2019s body, not touching it. Granting the victim a last moment of dignity. Nothing can hurt you now, she thought. She began to palpate the scalp, and felt the crunch of shifting bone fragments beneath the skin. \u201cMultiple blows. All of them landed on the crown or the back of the skull. . . .\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cAnd the facial bruising? Is that just lividity?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cYes. And it\u2019s fixed.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cSo the blows came from behind. And above.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cThe attacker was probably taller.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cOr she was down on her knees. And he was standing over her.\u201d<\/p>\n

Maura paused, hands touching cool flesh, arrested by the heartbreaking image of this young nun, kneeling before her attacker, blows raining down on her bowed head.<\/p>\n

\u201cWhat kind of bastard goes around beating up nuns?\u201d said Rizzoli. \u201cWhat the fuck is wrong with this world?\u201d<\/p>\n

Maura winced at Rizzoli\u2019s choice of words. Though she couldn\u2019t remember the last time she\u2019d set foot in a church, and had ceased believing years ago, to hear such profanity in a sanctified place disturbed her. Such was the power of childhood indoctrination. Even she, for whom saints and miracles were now merely fantasies, would never utter a curse in full view of the cross.<\/p>\n

But Rizzoli was too angry to care what words came tumbling out of her mouth, even in this sacred place. Her hair was more disheveled than usual, a wild, black mane glistening with melted sleet. The bones of her face jutted out in sharp angles beneath pale skin. In the gloom of the chapel, her eyes were bright coals, lit with rage. Righteous anger had always been Jane Rizzoli\u2019s fuel, the essence of what drove her to hunt monsters. Today, though, she seemed feverish with it, and her face was thinner, as though the fire was now consuming her from within.<\/p>\n

Maura did not want to feed those flames. She kept her voice dispassionate, her questions businesslike. A scientist dealing in facts, not emotions.<\/p>\n

She reached for Sister Camille\u2019s arm and tested the elbow joint. \u201cIt\u2019s flaccid. No rigor mortis.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cLess than five, six hours then?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cIt\u2019s also cold in here.\u201d<\/p>\n

Rizzoli gave a snort, exhaling a puff of vapor in the frigid air. \u201cNo kidding.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cJust above freezing, I\u2019d guess. Rigor mortis would be delayed.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cHow long?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cAlmost indefinitely.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cWhat about her face? The fixed bruising?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cLivor mortis could have happened within half an hour. It doesn\u2019t help us all that much with time of death.\u201d<\/p>\n

Maura opened her kit and set out the chemical thermometer to measure ambient temperature. She eyed the victim\u2019s many layers of clothing and decided not to take a rectal temperature until after the body had been transported to the morgue. The room was poorly lit\u2014not a place in which she could adequately rule out sexual assault prior to the insertion of the thermometer. Wrestling off clothes might also dislodge trace evidence. Instead she took out syringes to withdraw vitreous fluid for postmortem potassium levels. It would give her one estimate for time of death.<\/p>\n

\u201cTell me about the other victim,\u201d Maura said as she pierced the left eye and slowly withdrew vitreous fluid into the syringe.<\/p>\n

Rizzoli gave a groan of disgust at the procedure and turned away. \u201cThe vic found by the door was Sister Ursula Rowland, sixty-eight years old. Must be a tough old bird. They said she was moving her arms when they loaded her into the ambulance. Frost and I got here just as they were driving away.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cHow badly injured was she?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cI didn\u2019t see her. Latest report we got from St. Francis Hospital is that she\u2019s in surgery. Multiple skull fractures and bleeding into the brain.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cLike this victim.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cYeah. Like Camille.\u201d The anger was back in Rizzoli\u2019s voice.<\/p>\n

Maura rose to her feet and stood shivering. Her trousers had wicked freezing water from the soaked hem of her coat, and her calves felt encased in ice. She had been told on the phone that the death scene was indoors, so she had not brought her scarf or wool gloves from the car. This unheated room was scarcely warmer than the sleet-swept courtyard outside. She shoved her hands into her coat pockets, and wondered how Rizzoli, who was also without warm gloves and scarf, could linger so long in this frigid chapel. Rizzoli seemed to carry her own heat source within her, the fever of her outrage, and although her lips were turning blue, she did not seem in a hurry to seek a warmer room anytime soon.<\/p>\n

\u201cWhy is it so cold in here?\u201d asked Maura. \u201cI can\u2019t imagine they\u2019d want to hold Mass in this room.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cThey don\u2019t. This part of the building\u2019s never used in winter\u2014it\u2019s too expensive to heat. There are so few of them still living here, anyway. For Mass, they use a small chapel off the rectory.\u201d<\/p>\n

Maura thought of the three nuns she\u2019d seen through the window, all of them elderly. These sisters were dying flames, flickering out one by one. <\/p>\n

\u201cIf this chapel\u2019s not used,\u201d she said, \u201cwhat were the victims doing in here?\u201d<\/p>\n

Rizzoli gave a sigh, exhaling a dragon\u2019s breath of vapor. \u201cNo one knows. The Abbess says the last time she saw Ursula and Camille was at prayers last night, around nine. When they didn\u2019t appear at morning prayers, the sisters went looking for them. They never expected to find them in here.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cAll these blows to the head. It looks like sheer rage.\u201d <\/p>\n

\u201cBut look at her face,\u201d said Rizzoli, pointing to Camille. \u201cHe didn\u2019t hit her face. He spared her face. That makes it seem a lot less personal. As if he\u2019s not swinging at her specifically, but at what she is <\/span> . What she stands for.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cAuthority?\u201d said Maura. \u201cPower?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cFunny. I would have said something along the lines of faith, hope, and charity.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cWell, I went to a Catholic high school.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cYou?\u201d Rizzoli gave a snort. \u201cNever would\u2019ve guessed.\u201d<\/p>\n

Maura took a deep breath of chilly air and looked up at the cross, remembering her years at Holy Innocents Academy. And the special torments meted out by Sister Magdalene, who had taught history. The torment had not been physical but emotional, dispensed by a woman who was quick to identify which girls had, in her opinion, an unseemly excess of confidence. At the age of fourteen, Maura\u2019s best friends had not been people, but books. She\u2019d easily mastered all her classwork, and had been proud of it, too. That was what had brought Sister Magdalene\u2019s wrath down upon her shoulders. For Maura\u2019s own good, that unholy pride in her own intellect needed to be beaten into humility. Sister Magdalene went about the task with vicious gusto. She had held Maura up to ridicule in class, had written cutting comments in the margins of her immaculate papers, and sighed loudly whenever Maura raised her hand to ask a question. In the end, Maura had been reduced to conquered silence.<\/p>\n

\u201cThey used to intimidate me,\u201d said Maura. \u201cThe nuns.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cI didn\u2019t think anything scared you, Doc.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cLots of things scare me.\u201d<\/p>\n

Rizzoli laughed. \u201cJust not dead bodies, huh?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cThere are far scarier things in this world than dead bodies.\u201d<\/p>\n

They left the body of Camille lying on her bed of cold stone and moved back around the room\u2019s perimeter, toward the bloodstained floor where Ursula had been found, still alive. The photographer had completed his work and departed; only Maura and Rizzoli remained in the chapel, two lone women, their voices echoing off stark walls. Maura had always thought of chapels as universal sanctuaries, where even the spirit of the unbeliever might be comforted. But she found no comfort in this bleak place, where Death had walked, contemptuous of holy symbols.<\/p>\n

\u201cThey found Sister Ursula right here,\u201d said Rizzoli. \u201cShe was lying with her head pointed toward the altar, her feet toward the door.\u201d<\/p>\n

As though prostrating herself before the crucifix.<\/p>\n

\u201cThis guy\u2019s a fucking animal,\u201d said Rizzoli, the angry words clipped off like shards of ice. \u201cThat\u2019s what we\u2019re dealing with. Out of his mind. Or some coked-up asshole looking for something to steal.\u201d <\/p>\n

\u201cWe don\u2019t know it\u2019s a man.\u201d<\/p>\n

Rizzoli waved toward the body of Sister Camille. \u201cYou think a woman did that?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cA woman can swing a hammer. Crush a skull.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cWe found a footprint. There, halfway up the aisle. Looked to me like a man\u2019s size twelve.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cOne of the ambulance crew?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cNo, you can see the Med-Q team\u2019s footprints here, near the door. That one in the aisle\u2019s different. That one\u2019s his<\/span> .\u201d <\/p>\n

The wind blew, rattling the windows, and the door creaked as though invisible hands were tugging at it, desperate to get in. Rizzoli\u2019s lips had chilled to blue, and her face had taken on a corpselike pallor, but she showed no intention of seeking a warmer room. That was Rizzoli, too stubborn to be the first to capitulate. To admit she had reached her limit.<\/p>\n

Maura looked down at the stone floor where Sister Ursula had been lying, and she could not disagree with Rizzoli\u2019s instincts, that this attack was an act of insanity. This was madness she saw here, in these bloodstains. In the blows slammed into Sister Camille\u2019s skull. Either madness, or evil.<\/p>\n

An icy draft seemed to blow straight up her spine. She straightened, shivering, and her gaze fixed on the crucifix. \u201cI\u2019m freezing,\u201d she said. \u201cCan we get warm somewhere? Get a cup of coffee?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cAre you finished here?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cI\u2019ve seen what I need to. The autopsy will tell us the rest.\u201d<\/p>\n

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<\/p>\n

TWO<\/span><\/p>\n

THEY EMERGED<\/span> from the chapel, stepping over the strand of police tape which by now had fallen from the doorway and lay encased in ice. The wind flapped their coats and whipped their faces as they headed beneath the walkway, their eyes narrowed against rebel gusts of snowflakes. As they stepped into a gloomy entranceway, Maura registered barely a whisper of warmth against her numb face. She smelled eggs and old paint and the mustiness of an ancient heating system, radiating dust.<\/p>\n

The clatter of chinaware drew them down a dim hallway, into a room awash in fluorescent light, a disconcertingly modern detail. It glared down, stark and unflattering, on the deeply lined faces of the nuns seated around a battered rectory table. Thirteen of them\u2014an unlucky number. Their attention was focused on squares of bright floral cloth and silk ribbons and trays of dried lavender and rose petals. Craft time, thought Maura, watching as arthritic hands scooped up herbs and wound ribbon around sachets. One of the nuns sat slumped in a wheelchair. She was tilted to the side, her left hand curled into a claw on the armrest, her face sagging like a partly melted mask. The cruel aftermath of a stroke. Yet she was the first to notice the two intruders, and she gave a moan. The other sisters looked up, turning toward Maura and Rizzoli.<\/p>\n

Gazing into those wizened faces, Maura was startled by the frailty she saw there. These were not the stern images of authority she remembered from her girlhood, but the gazes of the bewildered, looking to her for answers to this tragedy. She was uneasy with her new status, the way a grown child is uneasy when he first realizes that he and his parents have reversed roles.<\/p>\n

Rizzoli asked, \u201cCan someone tell me where Detective Frost is?\u201d<\/p>\n

The question was answered by a harried-looking woman who had just come out of the adjoining kitchen, carrying a tray of clean coffee cups and saucers. She was dressed in a faded blue jumper stained with grease, and a tiny diamond glinted through the bubbles of dishwater on her left hand. Not a nun, thought Maura, but the rectory employee, tending to this ever more infirm community.<\/p>\n

\u201cHe\u2019s still talking to the Abbess,\u201d the woman said. She cocked her head toward the doorway, and a strand of brown hair came loose, curling over her frown-etched forehead. \u201cHer office is down the hall.\u201d<\/p>\n

Rizzoli nodded. \u201cI know the way.\u201d<\/p>\n

They left the harsh light of that room and continued down the hallway. Maura felt a draft here, a whisper of chill air, as though a ghost had just slipped past her. She did not believe in the afterlife, but when walking in the footsteps of those who had recently died, she sometimes wondered if their passing did not leave behind some imprint, some faint disturbance of energy that could be sensed by those who followed.<\/p>\n

Rizzoli knocked on the Abbess\u2019s door, and a tremulous voice said: \u201cCome in.\u201d<\/p>\n

Stepping into the room, Maura smelled the aroma of coffee, as delicious as perfume. She saw dark wood paneling and a simple crucifix mounted on the wall above an oak desk. Behind that desk sat a stooped nun whose eyes were magnified to enormous blue pools by her glasses. She appeared every bit as old as her frail sisters seated around the rectory table, and her glasses looked so heavy they might pitch her face-forward onto her desk. But the eyes gazing through those thick lenses were alert and bright with intelligence.<\/p>\n

Rizzoli\u2019s partner, Barry Frost, at once set down his coffee cup and rose to his feet out of politeness. Frost was the equivalent of everybody\u2019s kid brother, the one cop in the homicide unit who could walk into an interrogation room and make a suspect believe Frost was his best friend. He was also the one cop in the unit who never seemed to mind working with the mercurial Rizzoli, who even now was scowling at his cup of coffee, no doubt registering the fact that while she had been shivering in the chapel, her partner was sitting comfortably in this heated room.<\/p>\n

\u201cReverend Mother,\u201d said Frost, \u201cThis is Dr. Isles, from the Medical Examiner\u2019s office. Doc, this is Mother Mary Clement.\u201d<\/p>\n

Maura reached for the Abbess\u2019s hand. It was gnarled, the skin like dry paper over bones. As she shook it, Maura spotted a beige cuff peeking out from under the black sleeve. So this was how the nuns tolerated such a cold building. Beneath her woollen habit, the Abbess was wearing long underwear.<\/p>\n

Distorted blue eyes gazed at her through thick lenses. \u201cThe Medical Examiner\u2019s office? Does that mean you\u2019re a physician?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cYes. A pathologist.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cYou study causes of death?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cThat\u2019s right.\u201d<\/p>\n

The Abbess paused, as though gathering the courage to ask the next question. \u201cHave you already been inside the chapel? Have you seen . . .\u201d<\/p>\n

Maura nodded. She wanted to cut off the question she knew was coming, but she was incapable of rudeness to a nun. Even at the age of forty, she was still unnerved by the sight of a black habit.<\/p>\n

\u201cDid she . . .\u201d Mary Clement\u2019s voice slipped to a whisper. \u201cDid Sister Camille suffer greatly?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cI\u2019m afraid I have no answers yet. Not until I complete the . . . examination.\u201dAutopsy<\/span> was what she meant, but the word seemed too cold, too clinical, for Mary Clement\u2019s sheltered ears. Nor did she want to reveal the terrible truth: That in fact, she had a very good idea of what had happened to Camille. Someone had confronted the young woman in the chapel. Someone had pursued her as she fled in terror up the aisle, wrenching off her white novice\u2019s veil. As his blows avulsed her scalp, her blood had splashed the pews, yet she had staggered onward, until at last she stumbled to her knees, conquered at his feet. Even then her attacker did not stop. Even then, he had kept swinging, crushing her skull like an egg.<\/p>\n

Avoiding Mary Clement\u2019s eyes, Maura briefly lifted her gaze to the wooden cross mounted on the wall behind the desk, but that imposing symbol was no more comfortable for her to confront.<\/p>\n

Rizzoli cut in, \u201cWe haven\u2019t seen their bedrooms yet.\u201d As usual, she was all business, focusing only on what needed to be done next. <\/p>\n

Mary Clement blinked back tears. \u201cYes. I was about to take Detective Frost upstairs to their chambers.\u201d<\/p>\n

Rizzoli nodded. \u201cWe\u2019re ready when you are.\u201d<\/p>\n


<\/p>\n

The Abbess led the way up a stairway illuminated only by the glow of daylight through a stained glass window. On bright days, the sun would have painted the walls with a rich palette of colors, but on this wintry morning, the walls were murky with shades of gray.<\/p>\n

\u201cThe upstairs rooms are mostly empty now. Over the years, we\u2019ve had to move the sisters downstairs, one by one,\u201d said Mary Clement, climbing slowly, grasping the handrail as though hauling herself up, step by step. Maura half expected her to tumble backwards, and she stayed right behind her, tensing every time the Abbess paused, wobbling. \u201cSister Jacinta\u2019s knee is bothering her these days, so she\u2019ll take a room downstairs, too. And now Sister Helen has trouble catching her breath. There are so few of us left. . . .\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cIt\u2019s quite a large building to maintain,\u201d said Maura.<\/p>\n

\u201cAnd old.\u201d The Abbess paused to catch her breath. She added, with a sad laugh, \u201cOld like us. And so expensive to keep up. We thought we might have to sell, but God found a way for us to hold onto it.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cHow?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cA donor came forward last year. Now we\u2019ve started renovations. The slates on the roof are new, and we now have insulation in the attic. We plan to replace the furnace, next.\u201d She glanced back at Maura. \u201cBelieve it or not, this building feels quite cozy, compared to a year ago.\u201d<\/p>\n

The Abbess took a deep breath and resumed climbing the stairs, her rosary beads clattering. \u201cThere used to be forty-five of us here. When I first came to Graystones, we filled all these rooms. Both wings. But now we\u2019re a maturing community.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cWhen did you come, Reverend Mother?\u201d asked Maura.<\/p>\n

\u201cI entered as a postulant when I was eighteen years old. I had a young gentleman who wanted to marry me. I\u2019m afraid his pride was quite wounded when I turned him down for God.\u201d She paused on the step and looked back. For the first time, Maura noticed the bulge of a hearing aid beneath her wimple. \u201cYou probably can\u2019t imagine that, can you, Dr. Isles? That I was ever that young?\u201d<\/p>\n

No, Maura couldn\u2019t. She couldn\u2019t imagine Mary Clement as anything but the wobbly relic she was now. Certainly never a desirable woman, pursued by men.<\/p>\n

They reached the top of the stairs, and a long hallway stretched before them. It was warmer up here, almost pleasant, the heat trapped by low dark ceilings. The exposed beams looked at least a century old. The Abbess moved to the second door and hesitated, her hand on the knob. At last she turned it, and the door swung open, gray light from within spilling onto her face. \u201cThis is Sister Ursula\u2019s room,\u201d she said softly.<\/p>\n

The room was scarcely large enough to fit all of them at once. Frost and Rizzoli stepped in, but Maura remained by the door, her gaze drifting past shelves lined with books, past flowerpots containing thriving African violets. With its mullioned window and low-beamed ceiling, the room looked medieval. A scholar\u2019s tidy garret, furnished with a simple bed and dresser, a desk and chair.<\/p>\n

\u201cHer bed\u2019s been made,\u201d said Rizzoli, looking down at the neatly tucked sheets.<\/p>\n

\u201cThat\u2019s the way we found it this morning,\u201d said Mary Clement.<\/p>\n

\u201cDidn\u2019t she go to sleep last night?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cIt\u2019s more likely she rose early. She usually does.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cHow early?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cShe\u2019s often up hours before Lauds.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cLauds?\u201d asked Frost.<\/p>\n

\u201cOur morning prayers, at seven. This past summer, she was always out early, in the garden. She loves to work in the garden.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cAnd in the winter?\u201d asked Rizzoli. \u201cWhat does she do so early in the morning?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cWhatever the season, there\u2019s always work to be done, for those of us who can still manage it. But so many of the sisters are frail now. This year, we had to hire Mrs. Otis to help us prepare meals. Even with her help, we can scarcely keep up with the chores.\u201d<\/p>\n

Rizzoli opened the closet door. Inside hung an austere collection of blacks and browns. Not a hint of color nor embellishment. It was the wardrobe of a woman for whom the Lord\u2019s work was all-important, for whom the design of clothing was only in His service.<\/p>\n

\u201cThese are the only clothes she has? What I see in this closet?\u201d asked Rizzoli.<\/p>\n

\u201cWe take a vow of poverty when we join the order.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cDoes that mean you give up everything you own?\u201d<\/p>\n

Mary Clement responded with the patient smile one gives to a child who has just asked an absurd question. \u201cIt\u2019s not such a hardship, Detective. We keep our books, a few personal mementoes. As you can see, Sister Ursula enjoys her African violets. But yes, we leave almost everything behind when we come here. This is a contemplative order, and we don\u2019t welcome the distractions of the outside world.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cExcuse me, Reverend Mother,\u201d said Frost. \u201cI\u2019m not Catholic, so I don\u2019t understand what that word means. What\u2019s a contemplative order?\u201d<\/p>\n

His question had been quietly respectful, and Mary Clement favored him with a warmer smile than she had given Rizzoli. \u201cA contemplative leads a reflective life. A life of prayer and private devotion and meditation. That\u2019s why we retreat behind walls. Why we turn away visitors. Seclusion is a comfort to us.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cWhat if someone breaks the rules?\u201d asked Rizzoli. \u201cDo you kick her out?\u201d<\/p>\n

Maura saw Frost wince at his partner\u2019s bluntly worded question.<\/p>\n

\u201cOur rules are voluntary,\u201d said Mary Clement. \u201cWe abide by them because we wish to.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cBut every so often, there\u2019s got to be some nun who wakes up one morning and says, \u2018I feel like going to the beach.\u2019 \u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cIt doesn\u2019t happen.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cIt must happen. They\u2019re human beings.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cIt doesn\u2019t happen.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cNo one breaks the rules? No one jumps the wall?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cWe have no need to leave the abbey. Mrs. Otis buys our groceries. Father Brophy attends to our spiritual needs.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cWhat about letters? Phone calls? Even in high security prisons, you get to make a phone call every so often.\u201d<\/p>\n

Frost was shaking his head, his expression pained.<\/p>\n

\u201cWe have a telephone here, for emergencies,\u201d said Mary Clement.<\/p>\n

\u201cAnd anyone can use it?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cWhy would they wish to?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cHow about mail? Can you get letters?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cSome of us choose not to accept any mail.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cAnd if you want to send a letter?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cTo whom?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cDoes it matter?\u201d<\/p>\n

Mary Clement\u2019s face had frozen into a tight, lord-give-me-patience smile. \u201cI can only repeat myself, Detective. We are not prisoners. We choose to live this way. Those who don\u2019t agree with these rules may choose to leave.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cAnd what would they do, in the outside world?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cYou seem to think we have no knowledge of that world. But some of the sisters have served in schools or in hospitals.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cI thought being cloistered meant you couldn\u2019t leave the convent.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cSometimes, God calls us to tasks outside the walls. A few years ago, Sister Ursula felt His call to serve abroad, and she was granted exclaustration\u2014permission to live outside while keeping her vows.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cBut she came back.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cLast year.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cShe didn\u2019t like it out there, in the world?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cHer mission in India wasn\u2019t an easy one. And there was violence\u2014a terrorist attack on her village. That\u2019s when she returned to us. Here, she could feel safe again.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cShe didn\u2019t have family to go home to?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cHer closest relative was a brother, who died two years ago. We\u2019re her family now, and Graystones is her home. When you\u2019re tired of the world and in need of comfort, Detective,\u201d the Abbess asked gently, \u201cdon\u2019t you<\/span> go home?\u201d<\/p>\n

The answer seemed to unsettle Rizzoli. Her gaze shifted to the wall, where the crucifix hung. Just as quickly, it caromed away.<\/p>\n

\u201cReverend Mother?\u201d<\/p>\n

The woman in the grease-stained blue jumper was standing in the hall, looking in at them with flat, incurious eyes. A few more strands of brown hair had come loose from her ponytail and hung limp about her bony face. \u201cFather Brophy says he\u2019s on his way over to deal with the reporters. But there are so many of them calling now that Sister Isabel\u2019s just taken the phone off the hook. She doesn\u2019t know what to tell them.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cI\u2019ll be right there, Mrs. Otis.\u201d The Abbess turned to Rizzoli. \u201cAs you can see, we\u2019re overwhelmed. Please take as much time as you need here. I\u2019ll be downstairs.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cBefore you go,\u201d said Rizzoli, \u201cwhich room is Sister Camille\u2019s?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cIt\u2019s the fourth door.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cAnd it\u2019s not locked?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cThere are no locks on these doors,\u201d said Mary Clement. \u201cThere never have been.\u201d<\/p>\n


<\/p>\n

The smell of bleach and Murphy\u2019s Oil Soap was the first thing Maura registered as she stepped into Sister Camille\u2019s room. Like Sister Ursula\u2019s, this room had a mullioned window facing the courtyard and the same low, wood-beamed ceiling. But while Ursula\u2019s room felt lived-in, Camille\u2019s room had been so thoroughly scrubbed and sanitized it felt sterilized. The whitewashed walls were bare except for a wooden crucifix hanging opposite the bed. It would have been the first object Camille\u2019s gaze would fix upon when she awakened each morning, a symbol of her focused existence. This was a chamber for a penitent.<\/p>\n

Maura gazed down at the floor and saw where areas of fierce scrubbing had worn down the finish, leaving patches of lighter wood. She pictured fragile young Camille down on her knees, clutching steel wool, trying to sand away . . . what? A century\u2019s worth of stains? All traces of the women who had lived here before her?<\/p>\n

\u201cGeez,\u201d said Rizzoli. \u201cIf cleanliness is next to Godliness, this woman was a saint.\u201d<\/p>\n

Maura crossed to the desk by the window, where a book lay open. Saint Brigid of Ireland: A Biography.<\/span> She imagined Camille reading at this pristine desk, the window light playing on her delicate features. She wondered if, on warm days, Camille ever removed her novice\u2019s white veil and sat bareheaded, letting the breeze through the window blow across her cropped blond hair.<\/p>\n

\u201cThere\u2019s blood here,\u201d said Frost.<\/p>\n

Maura turned and saw that he was standing by the bed, staring down at the rumpled sheets.<\/p>\n

Rizzoli peeled back the covers, revealing bright red stains on the bottom sheet.<\/p>\n

\u201cMenstrual blood,\u201d said Maura, and saw Frost flush and turn away. Even married men were squeamish when it came to intimate details of women\u2019s bodily functions.<\/p>\n

The clang of the bell drew Maura\u2019s gaze back to the window. She watched as a nun emerged from the building to open the gate. Four visitors wearing yellow slickers entered the courtyard.<\/p>\n

\u201cCSU\u2019s arrived,\u201d said Maura.<\/p>\n

\u201cI\u2019ll go down and meet them,\u201d said Frost, and he left the room.<\/p>\n

Sleet was still falling, ticking against the glass, and a layer of rime distorted her view of the courtyard below. Maura caught a watery view of Frost stepping out to greet the crime-scene techs. Fresh invaders, violating the sanctity of the abbey. And beyond the wall, others were waiting to invade as well. She saw a TV news van creep past the gate, cameras no doubt rolling. How did they find their way here so quickly? Was the scent of death so powerful?<\/p>\n

She turned to look at Rizzoli. \u201cYou\u2019re Catholic, Jane. Aren\u2019t you?\u201d<\/p>\n

Rizzoli snorted as she picked through Camille\u2019s closet. \u201cMe? Catechism dropout.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cWhen did you stop believing?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cAbout the same time I stopped believing in Santa Claus. Never did make it to my confirmation, which to this day still pisses off my dad. Jesus, what a boring closet. Let\u2019s see, shall I wear the black or the brown habit today?<\/span> Why would any girl in her right mind want to be a nun?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cNot all nuns wear habits. Not since Vatican II.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cYeah, but that chastity thing, that hasn\u2019t changed. Imagine no sex for the rest of your life.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cI don\u2019t know,\u201d said Maura. \u201cIt might be a relief to stop thinking about men.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cI\u2019m not sure that\u2019s possible.\u201d She shut the closet door and slowly scanned the room, looking for . . . what? Maura wondered. The key to Camille\u2019s personality? The explanation for why her life had ended so young, so brutally? But there were no clues here that Maura could see. This was a room swept clean of all traces of its occupant. That, perhaps, was the most telling clue of all to Camille\u2019s personality. A young woman scrubbing, always scrubbing away at dirt. At sin.<\/p>\n

Rizzoli crossed to the bed and dropped down to her hands and knees to look underneath. \u201cGeez, it\u2019s so clean under here you can eat off the goddamn floor.\u201d<\/p>\n

Wind shook the window and sleet clattered against the glass. Maura turned and watched Frost and the CSTs cross toward the chapel. One of the techs suddenly slid across the stones, arms flung out like a skater as he struggled to stay upright. We\u2019re all struggling to stay upright, Maura thought. Resisting the pull of temptation, just as we fight the pull of gravity. And when we finally fall, it\u2019s always such a surprise.<\/p>\n

The team stepped into the chapel, and she imagined them standing in a silent circle, staring down at Sister Ursula\u2019s blood, their breaths marked by puffs of steam.<\/p>\n

Behind her there was a thud.<\/p>\n

She turned and was alarmed to see Rizzoli sitting on the floor next to the toppled chair. She had her head hanging between her knees.<\/p>\n

\u201cJane.\u201d Maura knelt beside her. \u201cJane?\u201d<\/p>\n

Rizzoli waved her away. \u201cI\u2019m okay. I\u2019m okay. . . .\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cWhat happened?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cI just . . . I think I got up too fast. I\u2019m just a little dizzy. . . .\u201d Rizzoli tried to straighten, then quickly dropped her head again.<\/p>\n

\u201cYou should lie down.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cI don\u2019t need to lie down. Just give me a minute to clear my head.\u201d<\/p>\n

Maura remembered that Rizzoli had not looked well in the chapel, her face too pale, her lips dusky. At the time she\u2019d assumed it was because the detective was chilled. Now they were in a warm room, and Rizzoli looked just as drained.<\/p>\n

\u201cDid you eat breakfast this morning?\u201d Maura asked.<\/p>\n

\u201cUh . . .\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cDon\u2019t you remember?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cYeah, I guess I ate. Sort of.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cWhat does that mean?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cA piece of toast, okay?\u201d Rizzoli shook off Maura\u2019s hand, an impatient rejection of any help. It was that fierce pride that sometimes made her so difficult to work with. \u201cI think I\u2019m coming down with the flu.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cYou\u2019re sure that\u2019s all it is?\u201d<\/p>\n

Rizzoli shoved her hair off her face and slowly sat up straight. \u201cYeah. And I shouldn\u2019t have had all that coffee this morning.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cHow much?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cThree\u2014maybe four cups.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cIsn\u2019t that overdoing it?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cI needed the caffeine. But now it\u2019s eating a hole in my stomach. I feel like puking.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cI\u2019ll walk you to the bathroom.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cNo.\u201d Rizzoli waved her away. \u201cI can make it, okay?\u201d Slowly she rose to her feet and just stood for a moment, as though not quite confident of her footing. Then she squared her shoulders, and with a hint of the old Rizzoli swagger, walked out of the room.<\/p>\n

The clang of the gate bell drew Maura\u2019s gaze back to the window. She watched as the elderly nun once again emerged from the building and shuffled across the cobblestones to answer the call. This new visitor did not need to plead his case; the nun at once opened the gate. A man dressed in a long black coat stepped into the courtyard and laid his hand on the nun\u2019s shoulder. It was a gesture of comfort and familiarity. Together they walked toward the building, the man moving slowly to match her arthritic gait, his head bent toward her as though he did not want to miss hearing a single word she said.<\/p>\n

Halfway across the courtyard, he suddenly stopped and looked up, as though he sensed that Maura was watching him.<\/p>\n

For an instant, their gazes met through the window. She saw a lean and striking face, a head of black hair, ruffled by the wind. And she caught a glimpse of white, tucked beneath the raised collar of his black coat.<\/p>\n

A priest.<\/p>\n

When Mrs. Otis had announced that Father Brophy was on his way to the abbey, Maura had imagined him to be an elderly, gray-haired man. But the man gazing up at her now was young\u2014no older than forty.<\/p>\n

He and the nun continued toward the building, and Maura lost sight of them. The courtyard was once again deserted, but the trampled snow bore a record of all who had walked across it that morning. The morgue transport team would soon arrive with their stretcher and add yet more footprints to the snow.<\/p>\n

She took a deep breath, dreading the return to the cold chapel, to the grim task that still lay before her. She left the room and went down to await her team.<\/p>\n

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