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Table of Contents

Epigraph

Title Page

Copyright Page

Dedication

BOOK I – The Ship in the Earth

Chapter 1. – ANDERSON STUMBLES

Chapter 2. – ANDERSON DIGS

Chapter 3. – PETER SEES THE LIGHT

Chapter 4. – THE DIG, CONTINUED

Chapter 5. – GARDENER TAKES A FALL

Chapter 6. – GARDENER ON THE ROCKS

Chapter 7. – GARDENER ARRIVES

Chapter 8. – MODIFICATIONS

Chapter 9. – ANDERSON SPINS A TALE

Chapter 10. – GARDENER DECIDES

BOOK II – Tales of Haven

Chapter 1. – THE TOWN

Chapter 2. – \u2019BECKA PAULSON

Chapter 3. – HILLY BROWN

Chapter 4. – BENT AND JINGLES

Chapter 5. – RUTH McCAUSLAND

Chapter 6. – RUTH McCAUSLAND CONCLUDED

Chapter 7. – BEACH JERNIGAN AND DICK ALLISON

Chapter 8. – EV HILLMAN

Chapter 9. – THE FUNERAL

Chapter 10. – A BOOK OF DAYS\u2014THE TOWN, CONCLUDED

BOOK III – The Tommyknockers

Chapter 1. – SISSY

Chapter 2. – GARDENER TAKES A WALK

Chapter 3. – THE HATCH

Chapter 4. – THE SHED

Chapter 5. – THE SCOOP

Chapter 6. – INSIDE THE SHIP

Chapter 7. – THE SCOOP, CONTINUED

Chapter 8. – GARD ANDBOBBI

Chapter 9. – THE SCOOP, CONCLUDED

Chapter 10. – TOMMYKNOCKERS, KNOCKING AT THE DOOR

Epilogue
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Late Last Night and the Night Before …<\/span>

THE TOMMYKNOCKERS<\/span>

… Tommyknockers, tommyknockers, knocking at the door.

Something was happening in Bobbi Anderson\u2019s idyllic small town of Haven, Maine. Something that gave every man, woman, and child in town powers far beyond ordinary mortals. Something that turned the town into a death trap for all outsiders. Something that came from a metal object, buried for millennia, that Bobbi stumbled across.

It wasn\u2019t that Bobbi and the other good folks of Haven had sold their souls to reap the rewards of the most deadly evil this side of hell. It was more like a diabolical takeover … and invasion of body and soul\u2014and mind.

\u201cKing athis best.\u201d<\/span>

\u2014San Francisco Chronicle<\/span>
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WORKS BY STEPHEN KING<\/span>

NOVELS
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Carrie
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\u2019Salem\u2019s Lot
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The Shining
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The Stand
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The Dead Zone
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Firestarter
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Cujo
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THE DARK TOWER I:
The Gunslinger
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Christine
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Pet Sematary
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Cycle of the Werewolf
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The Talisman
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(with Peter Straub)
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It
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The Eyes of the Dragon
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Misery
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The Tommyknockers
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THE DARK TOWER II:
The Drawing
of the Three
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THE DARK TOWER III:
The Waste Lands
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The Dark Half
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Needful Things
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Gerald\u2019s Game
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Dolores Claiborne
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Insomnia
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Rose Madder
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Desperation
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The Green Mile
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THE DARK TOWER IV:
Wizard and Glass
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Bag of Bones
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The Girl Who Loved Tom
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Gordon
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Dreamcatcher
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Black House
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(with Peter Straub)
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From a Buick 8
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THE DARK TOWER V:
Wolves of the Calla
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THE DARK TOWER VI:
Song of Susannah
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THE DARK TOWER VII:
The Dark Tower

AS RICHARD BACHMAN
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Rage
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The Long Walk
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Roadwork
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The Running Man
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Thinner
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The Regulators

COLLECTIONS
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Night Shift
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Different Seasons
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Skeleton Crew
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Four Past Midnight
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Nightmares and
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Dreamscapes
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Hearts in Atlantis
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Everything\u2019s Eventual
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NONFICTION
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Danse Macabre
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On Writing

SCREENPLAYS
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Creepshow
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Cat\u2019s Eye
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Silver Bullet
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Maximum Overdrive
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Pet Sematary
<\/p>\n

Golden Years
<\/p>\n

Sleepwalkers
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The Stand
<\/p>\n

The Shining
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Rose Red
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Storm of the Century
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SIGNET<\/span>

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FOR TABITHA KING<\/span>

\u201c…promises to keep.\u201d
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LIKE MANY OF THE MOTHER GOOSE RHYMES,<\/span><\/p>\n

the verse about the Tommyknockers is deceptively simple. The origin of the word is difficult to trace. Webster\u2019s Unabridged<\/p>\n

says Tommyknockers are either (a) tunneling ogres or (b) ghosts which haunt deserted mines or caves. Because \u201ctommy\u201d is an archaic British slang term referring to army rations (leading to the term \u201ctommies\u201d as a word used to identify British conscripts, as in Kipling\u2014\u201cit\u2019s Tommy this, an\u2019 Tommy that …\u201d), the Oxford Unabridged Dictionary,<\/p>\n

while not identifying the term itself, at least suggests that Tommyknockers are the ghosts of miners who died of starvation, but still go knocking for food and rescue.

The first verse (\u201cLate last night and the night before,\u201d etc.) is common enough for my wife and myself to have heard it as children, although we were raised in different towns, different faiths, and came from different descendants\u2014hers primarily French, mine Scots-Irish.

All other verses are products of the author\u2019s imagination.

That author\u2014me, in other words\u2014wishes to thank his spouse, Tabitha, who is an invaluable if sometimes maddening critic (if you get mad at critics, you almost always can be sure they are right), the editor, Alan Williams, for his kind and careful attention, Phyllis Grann for her patience (this book was not so much written as gutted out), and, in particular, George Everett McCutcheon, who has read each of my novels and vetted it carefully\u2014primarily for weapons and ballistics reasons, but also for his attention to continuity. Mac died while this book was in rewrite. In fact, I was obediently making corrections suggested by one of his notes when I learned he had finally succumbed to the leukemia he had battled for nearly two years. I miss him terribly, not because he helped me fix things but because he was part of my heart\u2019s neighborhood.

Thanks are due to others, more than I could name: pilots, dentists, geologists, fellow writers, even my kids, who listened to the book aloud. I\u2019m also grateful to Stephen Jay Gould. Although he is a Yankee fan and thus not entirely to be trusted, his comments on the possibilities of what I\u2019d call \u201cdumb evolution\u201d helped to shape the redraft of this novel (e.g. The Flamingo\u2019s Smile).

Haven is not real. The characters are not real. This is a work of fiction, with one exception:

The Tommyknockers<\/p>\n

are real.

If you think I\u2019m kidding, you missed the nightly news.

\u2014STEPHEN KING<\/span>
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Late last night and the night before,
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Tommyknockers, Tommyknockers,
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knocking at the door.
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I want to go out, don\u2019t know if I can,
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\u2019cause I\u2019m so afraid
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of the Tommyknocker man.

\u2014TRADITIONAL<\/span>
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BOOK I<\/span>

The Ship in the Earth<\/span>

Well we picked up Harry Truman, floating down fromIndependence,
We said, \u201cWhat about the war?\u201d
He said, \u201cGood riddance!\u201d
We said, \u201cWhat about the bomb? Are you sorry that you
did it?\u201d
He said, \u201cPass me that bottle and mind your own bidness. \u201d

\u2014THE RAINMAKERS<\/span><\/p>\n

, \u201cDownstream\u201d<\/span>
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1.<\/span>

ANDERSON STUMBLES<\/span>

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1<\/span>
For want of a nail the kingdom was lost\u2014that\u2019s how the catechism goes when you boil it down. In the end, you can boil everything<\/p>\n

down to something similar\u2014or so Roberta Anderson thought much later on. It\u2019s either all an accident … or all fate. Anderson literally stumbled over her destiny in the small town of Haven, Maine, on June 21, 1988. That stumble was the root of the matter; all the rest was nothing but history.

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2<\/span>
Anderson was out that afternoon with Peter, an aging beagle who was now blind in one eye. Peter had been given to her by Jim Gardener in 1976. Anderson had left college the year before with her degree only two months away to move onto her uncle\u2019s place in Haven. She hadn\u2019t realized how lonely she\u2019d been until Gard brought the dog. He\u2019d been a pup then, and Anderson sometimes found it difficult to believe he was now old\u2014eighty-four in dog\u2019s years. It was a way of measuring her own age. Nineteen-seventy-six had receded. Yes indeed. When you were twenty-five, you could still indulge in the luxury of believing that, in your<\/p>\n

case, at least, growing up was a clerical error which would eventually be rectified. When you woke up one day and discovered your dog was eighty-four and you yourself were thirty-seven, that was a view that had to be reexamined. Yes indeed.

Anderson was looking for a place to cut some wood. She\u2019d a cord and a half laid by, but wanted at least another three to take her through the winter. She had cut a lot since those early days when Peter had been a pup sharpening his teeth on an old slipper (and wetting all too often on the dining-room rug), but the place was still not short. The property (still, after thirteen years, mostly referred to by the townspeople as the old Garrick place) had only a hundred and eighty feet on Route 9, but the rock walls marking the north and south boundaries marched off at diverging angles. Another rock wall\u2014this one so old it had degenerated into isolated rock middens furred with moss\u2014marked the property\u2019s rear boundary about three miles into an unruly forest of first- and second-growth trees. The total acreage of this pie-shaped wedge was huge. Beyond the wall at the western edge of Bobbi Anderson\u2019s land were miles of wilderness owned by the New England Paper Company. Burning Woods, on the map.

In truth, Anderson didn\u2019t really need to hunt a place to do her cutting. The land her mother\u2019s brother had left her was valuable because most of the trees on it were good hardwood relatively untouched by the gypsy-moth infestation. But this day was lovely and warm after a rainy spring, the garden was in the ground (where most of it would rot, thanks to the rains), and it wasn\u2019t yet time to start the new book. So she had covered the typewriter and here she was with faithful old one-eyed Peter, rambling.

There was an old logging road behind the farm, and she followed this almost a mile before striking off to the left. She was wearing a pack (a sandwich and a book in it for her, dog biscuits for Peter, and lots of orange ribbon to tie around the trunks of the trees she would want to cut as September\u2019s heat ebbed toward October) and a canteen. She had a Silva compass in her pocket. She had gotten lost on the property only once, and once was enough to last her forever. She had spent a terrible night in the woods, simultaneously unable to believe she had actually gotten lost on property she for Christ\u2019s sweet sake owned<\/p>\n

and sure she would die out here\u2014a possibility in those days, because only Jim would know she was missing, and Jim only came when you weren\u2019t expecting him. In the morning, Peter had led her to a stream, and the stream had led her back to Route 9, where it burbled cheerfully through a culvert under the tar only two miles from home. Nowadays she probably had enough woods savvy to find her way back to the road or to one of the rock walls bounding her land, but the key word was probably.<\/p>\n

So she carried a compass.

She found a good stand of maple around three o\u2019clock. In fact, she had found several other good stands of wood, but this one was close to a path she knew, a path wide enough to accommodate the Tomcat. Come September 20th or so\u2014if someone didn\u2019t blow the world up in the meantime\u2014she would hook her sledge up to the Tomcat, drive in here, and do some cutting. Besides, she had walked enough for one day.

\u201cLook good, Pete?\u201d

Pete barked feebly, and Anderson looked at the beagle with a sadness so deep it surprised and disquieted her. Peter was done up. He seldom took after birds and squirrels and chipmunks and the occasional woodchuck these days; the thought of Peter running a deer was laughable. She would have to take a good many rest stops on the way back for him … and there had been a time, not that long ago (or so her mind stubbornly maintained), when Peter would always have been a quarter of a mile ahead of her, belling volleys of barks back through the woods. She thought there might come a day when she would decide enough was enough; she\u2019d pat the seat on the passenger side of the Chevrolet pickup for the last time, and take Peter to the vet down in Augusta. But not this summer, please God. Or this fall or winter, please God. Or ever, please God.

Because without Peter, she would be alone. Except for Jim, and Jim Gardener had gotten more than just a trifle wiggy over the last eight years or so. Still a friend, but … wiggy.

\u201cGlad you approve, Pete old man,\u201d she said, putting a ribbon or two around the trees, knowing perfectly well she might decide to cut another stand and the ribbons would rot here. \u201cYour taste is only exceeded by your good looks.\u201d

Peter, knowing what was expected of him (he was old, but not stupid), wagged his scraggy stub of a tail and barked.

\u201cBe a Viet Cong!\u201d Anderson ordered.

Peter obediently fell on his side\u2014a little wheeze escaped him\u2014and rolled on his back, legs splayed out. That almost always amused Anderson, but today the sight of her dog playing Viet Cong (Peter would also play dead at the words \u201chooch\u201d or \u201cMy Lai\u201d) was too close to what she had been thinking about.

\u201cUp, Pete.\u201d

Pete got up slowly, panting below his muzzle. His white muzzle.

\u201cLet\u2019s go back.\u201d She tossed him a dog biscuit. Peter snapped at it and missed. He snuffed for it, missed it, then came back to it. He ate it slowly, without much relish. \u201cRight,\u201d Anderson said. \u201cMove out.\u201d

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3<\/span>
For want of a shoe, the kingdom was lost … for the choice of a path, the ship was found.

Anderson had been down here before in the thirteen years that the Garrick place hadn\u2019t become the Anderson place; she recognized the slope of land, a deadfall left by pulpers who had probably all died before the Korean War, a great pine with a split top. She had walked this land before and would have no trouble finding her way back to the path she would use with the Tomcat. She might have passed the spot where she stumbled once or twice or half a dozen times before, perhaps by yards, or feet, or bare inches.

This time she followed Peter as the dog moved slightly to the left, and with the path in sight, one of her elderly hiking boots fetched up against something … fetched up hard.

\u201cHey!\u201d she yelled, but it was too late, in spite of her pinwheeling arms. She fell to the ground. The branch of a low bush scratched her cheek hard enough to bring blood.

\u201cShit!\u201d she cried, and a bluejay scolded her.

Peter returned, first sniffing and then licking her nose.

\u201cChrist, don\u2019t do that, your breath stinks!\u201d

Peter wagged his tail. Anderson sat up. She rubbed her left cheek and saw blood on her palm and fingers. She grunted.

\u201cNice going,\u201d she said, and looked to see what she had tripped over\u2014a fallen piece of tree, most likely, or a rock poking out of the ground. Lots of rock in Maine.

What she saw was a gleam of metal.

She touched it, running her finger along it and then blowing off black forest dirt.

\u201cWhat\u2019s this?\u201d she asked Peter.

Peter approached, sniffed at it, and then did a peculiar thing. The beagle backed off two dog-paces, sat down, and uttered a single low howl.

\u201cWho got on your case?\u201d Anderson asked, but Peter only sat there. Anderson hooked herself closer, still sitting down, sliding on the seat of her jeans. She examined the metal in the ground.

Roughly three inches stuck out of the mulchy earth\u2014just enough to trip over. There was a slight rise here, and perhaps the runoff from the heavy spring rains had freed it. Anderson\u2019s first thought was that the skidders who had logged this land in the twenties and thirties must have buried a bunch of their leavings here\u2014the cast-off swill of a three-day cutting, which in those days had been called a \u201cloggers\u2019 weekend.\u201d

A tin can, she thought\u2014B&M beans or Campbell\u2019s soup. She wiggled it the way you\u2019d wiggle a tin can out of the earth. Then it occurred to her that no one except a toddler would be apt to trip over the leading edge of a can. The metal in the earth didn\u2019t wiggle. It was as solid as mother-rock. A piece of old logging equipment, maybe?

Intrigued, Anderson examined it more closely, not seeing that Peter had gotten to his feet, backed away another four paces, and sat down again.

The metal was a dull gray\u2014not the bright color of tin or iron at all. And it was thicker than a can, maybe a quarter-inch at its top. Anderson placed the pad of her right index finger on this edge and felt a momentary odd tingling, like a vibration.

She took her finger away and looked at it quizzically.

Put it back.

Nothing. No buzz.

Now she pinched it between her thumb and finger and tried to draw it from the earth like a loose tooth from a gum. It didn\u2019t come. She was gripping the protrusion in the rough center. It sank back into the earth\u2014or that was the impression she had then\u2014on either side at a width of less than two inches. She would later tell Jim Gardener that she could have walked past it three times a day for forty years and never stumbled over it.

She brushed away loose soil, exposing a little more of it. She dug a channel along it about two inches deep with her fingers\u2014the soil gave easily enough, as forest soil does … at least until you hit the webwork of roots. It continued smoothly down into the ground. Anderson got up on her knees and dug down along either side. She tried wiggling it again. Still no go.

She scraped away more soil with her fingers and quickly exposed more\u2014now she saw six inches of gray metal, now nine, now a foot.

It\u2019s a car or a truck or a skidder, she thought suddenly. Buried out here in the middle of nowhere. Or maybe a Hooverville kind of stove. But why here?

No reason that she could think of; no reason at all. She found things in the woods from time to time\u2014shell casings, beer cans (the oldest not with pop-tops but with triangle-shaped holes made by what they had called a \u201cchurchkey\u201d back in those dim dead days of the 1960s), candy wrappers, other stuff. Haven was not on either of Maine\u2019s two major tourist tracks, one of which runs through the lake and mountain region to the extreme west of the state and the other of which runs up the coast to the extreme east, but it had not been the forest primeval for a long, long time. Once (she had been over the decayed stone wall at the back of her land and actually trespassing on New England Paper Company\u2019s land at the time) she had found the rusted hulk of a late-forties Hudson Hornet standing in what had once been a woods road and what was now, over twenty years after the cutting had stopped, a tangle of second growth\u2014what the locals called shit-wood. No reason that hulk of a car should have been there, either … but it was easier to explain than a stove or a refrigerator or any other damn thing actually buried in the ground.

She had dug twin trenches a foot long on either side of the object without finding its end. She got down almost a foot before scraping her fingers on rock. She might have been able to pull the rock out\u2014that<\/p>\n

at least had some wiggle\u2014but there was no reason to do it. The object in the earth continued down past it.

Peter whined.

Anderson glanced at the dog, then stood up. Both knees popped. Her left foot tingled with pins and needles. She fished her pocket watch out of her pants\u2014old and tarnished, the Simon watch was another part of her legacy from Uncle Frank\u2014and was astonished to see that she had been here a long time: an hour and a quarter at least. It was past four.

\u201cCome on, Pete,\u201d she said. \u201cLet\u2019s bug out.\u201d

Peter whined again but still wouldn\u2019t move. And now, with real concern, Anderson saw that her old beagle was shivering all over, as if with ague. She had no idea if dogs could catch ague, but thought old ones might. She did recollect that the only time she had ever seen Peter shiver like that was in the fall of 1977 (or maybe it had been \u201978). There had been a catamount on the place. Over a series of perhaps nine nights it had screamed and squalled, very likely in unrequited heat. Each night Peter would go to the living-room window and jump up on the old church pew Anderson kept there by her bookcase. He never barked. He only looked out into the dark toward that unearthly, womanish squealing, nostrils flaring, ears up. And he shivered.

Anderson stepped over her little excavation and went to Peter. She knelt down and ran her hands along the sides of Peter\u2019s face, feeling the shiver in her palms.

\u201cWhat\u2019s wrong, boy?\u201d she murmured, but she knew what was wrong. Peter\u2019s good eye shifted past her, toward the thing in the earth, and then back to Anderson. The plea in the eye not veiled by the hateful, milky cataract was as clear as speech: Let\u2019s get out of here, Bobbi, I like that thing almost as much as I like your sister.

\u201cOkay,\u201d Anderson said uneasily. It suddenly occurred to her that she could not remember ever having lost track of time as she had today, out here.

Peter doesn\u2019t like it. I don\u2019t either.

\u201cCome on.\u201d She started up the slope to the path. Peter followed with alacrity.

They were almost to the path when Anderson, like Lot\u2019s wife, looked back. If not for that last glance, she might actually have let the whole thing go. Since leaving college before finals\u2014in spite of her mother\u2019s tearful pleas and her sister\u2019s furious diatribes and baleful ultimatums\u2014Andersen had gotten good at letting things go.

The look back from this middle distance showed her two things. First, the thing did not sink back into the earth as she had at first thought. The tongue of metal was sticking up in the middle of a fairly fresh declivity, not wide but fairly deep, and surely the result of late-winter runoff and the heavy spring rains that had followed it. So the ground to either side of the protruding metal was higher, and the metal simply disappeared back into it. Her first impression, that the thing in the ground was the corner of something, wasn\u2019t true after all\u2014or not necessarily true. Second, it looked like a plate\u2014not a plate you\u2019d eat from, but a dull metal plate, like metal siding or\u2014

Peter barked.

\u201cOkay,\u201d Anderson said. \u201cI hear you talking. Let\u2019s go. \u201d

Let\u2019s go … and let\u2019s let it go.

She walked up the center of the path, letting Peter lead them back toward the woods road at his own bumbling pace, enjoying the lush green of high summer … and this was<\/p>\n

the first day of summer, wasn\u2019t it? The solstice. Longest day of the year. She slapped a mosquito and grinned. Summer was a good time in Haven. The best of times. And if Haven wasn\u2019t the best of places, parked as it was well above Augusta in that central part of the state most tourists passed by, it was still a good place to come to rest. There had been a time when Anderson had honestly believed she would only be here a few years, long enough to recover from the traumas of adolescence, her sister, and her abrupt, confused withdrawal (surrender, Anne called it) from college, but a few years had become five, five had become ten, ten had become thirteen, and looky \u2019yere, Huck, Peter\u2019s old and you got a pretty good crop of gray coming up in what used to be hair as black as the River Styx (she\u2019d tried cropping it close two years ago, almost a punk do, had been horrified to find it made the gray even more noticeable, and had let it grow ever since).

She now thought she might spend the rest of her life in Haven, with the sole exception of the duty trip she took to visit her publisher in New York every year or two. The town got you. The place got you. The land<\/p>\n

got you. And that wasn\u2019t so bad. It was as good as anything else, maybe.

Like a plate. A metal plate.

She broke off a short limber branch well plumed with fresh green leaves and waved it around her head. The mosquitoes had found her and seemed determined to have their high tea off her. Mosquitoes whirling around her head … and thoughts like mosquitoes inside her head. Those she couldn\u2019t wave off.

It vibrated under my finger for a second. I felt it. Like a tuning fork. But when I touched it, it stopped. Is it possible for something to vibrate in the earth like that? Surely not. Maybe<\/p>\n

…

Maybe it had been a psychic<\/p>\n

vibration. She did not absolutely disbelieve in such things. Maybe her mind had sensed something about that buried object and had told her about it in the only way it could, by giving her a tactile impression: one of vibration. Peter had certainly sensed something about it; the old beagle hadn\u2019t wanted to go near it.

Forget it.<\/p>\n

She did.

For a little while.

<\/p>\n

4<\/span>
That night a high, mild wind arose and Anderson went out on her front porch to smoke and listen to the wind walk and talk. At one time\u2014even a year earlier\u2014Peter would have come out with her, but now he remained in the parlor, curled up on his small hooked rug by the stove, nose to tail.

Anderson found her mind replaying that last look back at the plate sticking out of the earth, and she later came to believe that there was a moment\u2014perhaps when she flicked the cigarette into the gravel drive\u2014when she decided she would have to dig it up and see what it was … although she didn\u2019t consciously recognize the decision then.

Her mind worried restlessly at what it might be, and this time she allowed it to run\u2014she had learned that if your mind insisted on returning to a topic no matter how you tried to divert it, it was best to let it return. Only obsessives worried about obsession.

Part of some building, her mind hazarded, a prefab. But no one built Quonset huts out in the woods\u2014why drag all that metal in when three men could throw up a cutter\u2019s lean-to with saws, axes, and a two-handed bucksaw in six hours? Not a car, either, or the protruding metal would have been flaked with rust. An engine-block seemed slightly more likely, but why?

And now, with dark drawing down, that memory of vibration returned with inarguable certainty. It must<\/p>\n

have been a psychic vibration, if she had felt it at all. It\u2014

Suddenly a cold and terrible certainty rose in her: someone was buried there. Maybe she had uncovered the leading edge of a car or an old refrigerator or even some sort of steel trunk, but whatever it had been in its aboveground life, it was now a coffin. A murder victim? Who else would be buried in such a way, in such a box? Guys who happened to wander into the woods during hunting season and got lost there and died there didn\u2019t carry along metal caskets to pop themselves into when they died … and even given such an idiotic idea, who would shovel the dirt back in? Cut me a break, folks, as we used to say back in the glorious days of our youth.

The vibration. It had been the call of human bones.

Come on, Bobbi\u2014don\u2019t be so fucking stupid.

A shudder worked through her nevertheless. The idea had a certain weird persuasiveness, like a Victorian ghost story that had no business working as the world hurtled down Microchip Alley toward the unknown wonders and horrors of the twenty-first century\u2014but somehow produced the gooseflesh just the same. She could hear Anne laughing and saying You\u2019re getting as funny in the head as Uncle Frank, Bobbi, and it\u2019s just what you deserve, living out there alone with your smelly dog.<\/p>\n

Sure. Cabin fever. The hermit complex. Call the doctor, call the nurse, Bobbi\u2019s bad … and getting worse.

All the same, she suddenly wanted to talk to Jim Gardener\u2014needed<\/p>\n

to talk to him. She went in to call his place up the road in Unity. She had dialed four numbers when she remembered he was off doing readings\u2014those and the poetry workshops were the way he supported himself. For itinerant artists, summer was prime time. All those menopausal matrons have to do something with their summers,<\/p>\n

she could hear Jim saying ironically, and I have to eat in the winter. One hand washes the other. You ought to thank God you\u2019re saved the reading circuit, anyway, Bobbi.

Yes, she was saved that\u2014although she thought Jim liked it more than he let on. Certainly did get laid enough.

Anderson put the phone back in the cradle and looked at the bookcase to the left of the stove. It wasn\u2019t a handsome bookcase\u2014she was no one\u2019s carpenter, nor ever would be\u2014but it served the purpose. The bottom two shelves were taken up by the Time-Life series of volumes on the old west. The two shelves above were filled with a mixture of fiction and fact on that same subject; Brian Garfield\u2019s early westerns jostled for place with Hubert Hampton\u2019s massive Western Territories Examined,<\/p>\n

Louis L\u2019Amour\u2019s Sackett saga lay cheek by jowl with Richard Marius\u2019 wonderful two novels, The Coming of Rain and Bound for the Promised Land.<\/p>\n

Jay R. Nash\u2019s Bloodletters and Badmen<\/p>\n

and Richard F. K. Mudgett\u2019s Westward Expansion<\/p>\n

bracketed a riot of paperback westerns by Ray Hogan, Archie Joceylen, Max Brand, Ernest Haycox, and, of course, Zane Grey\u2014Anderson\u2019s copy of Riders of the Purple Sage<\/p>\n

had been read nearly to tatters.

On the top shelf were her own books, eleven of them. Ten were westerns, beginning with Hangtown,<\/p>\n

published in 1975, and ending with The Long Ride Back,<\/p>\n

published in \u201986. Massacre Canyon,<\/p>\n

the new one, would be published in September, as all of her westerns had been since the beginning. It occurred to her now that she had been here, in Haven, when she had received her first copy of Hangtown,<\/p>\n

although she\u2019d begun the novel in the room of a scuzzy Cleaves Mills apartment, on a thirties-vintage Underwood dying of old age. Still, she\u2019d finished here, and it was here that she\u2019d held the first actual copy of the book in her hands.

Here, in Haven. Her entire career as a publishing writer was here … except for the first book.

She took that down now and looked at it curiously, realizing it had been perhaps five years since she had last held this slim volume in her hands. It was not only depressing to realize how fast time got by; it was depressing to think of how often she thought about that lately.

This volume was a total contrast to the others, with their jackets showing mesas and buttes, riders and cows and dusty trail-drive towns. This jacket was a nineteenth-century woodcut of a clipper ship quartering toward land. Its uncompromising blacks and whites were startling, almost shocking. Boxing the Compass<\/p>\n

was the title printed above the woodcut. And below it: Poems by Roberta Anderson.

She opened the book, paging past the title, musing for a moment over the copyright date, 1974, then pausing at the dedication page. It was as stark as the woodcut. This book is for James Gardener.<\/p>\n

The man she had been trying to call. The second of the only three men she had ever had sex with, and the only one who had ever been able to bring her to orgasm. Not that she attached any special importance to that.<\/p>\n

Or not much, anyway. Or so she thought. Or thought<\/p>\n

she thought. Or something. And it didn\u2019t matter anyway; those days were also old days.

She sighed and put the book back on the shelf without looking at the poems. Only one of them was much good. That one had been written in March of 1972, a month after her grandfather died of cancer. The rest of them were crap\u2014the casual reader might have been fooled, because she was a talented writer … but the heart of her talent had been somewhere else. When she had published Hangtown,<\/p>\n

the circle of writers she had known had all denied her. All except Jim, who had published Boxing the Compass<\/p>\n

in the first place.

She had dropped Sherry Fenderson a long chatty letter not long after coming to Haven, and had received a curt postcard in return: Please don\u2019t write me anymore. I don\u2019t know you.<\/p>\n

Signed with a single slashed S. as curt as the message. She had been sitting on the porch, crying over that card, when Jim showed up. Why are you crying over what that silly woman thinks? he had asked her. Do you really want to trust the judgment of a woman who goes around yelling \u201cPower to the people\u201d and smelling of Chanel Number Five?

She just happens to be a very good poet,<\/p>\n

she had sniffled.

Jim gestured impatiently. That doesn\u2019t make her any older,<\/p>\n

he had said, or any more able to recant the cant she\u2019s been taught and then taught herself. Get your mind right, Bobbi. If you want<\/p>\n

to go on doing what you like, get your fucking mind right and stop that fucking crying. That fucking crying makes me sick. That fucking crying makes me want to puke. You\u2019re not weak. I know weak when I\u2019m with it. Why do you want to be something you\u2019re not? Your sister? Is that why? She\u2019s not here, and she\u2019s not you, and you don\u2019t have to let her in if you don\u2019t want to. Don\u2019t whine to me about your sister anymore. Grow up. Stop bitching.

She\u2019d looked at him, she remembered now, amazed.

There\u2019s a big difference between being good at what you<\/p>\n

Do and being smart about what you<\/p>\n

KNOW, he said. Give Sherry some time to grow up. Give yourself some time to grow up. And stop being your own jury. It\u2019s boring, I don\u2019t want to listen to you snivel. Sniveling is for jerks. Quit being a jerk.

She had felt herself hating him, loving him, wanting all of him and none of him. Did he say he knew weak when he was with it? Boy, he ought to. He was bent. She knew it even then.

Now,<\/p>\n

he had said, you want to lay an ex-publisher or do you want to cry all over that stupid postcard?

She had laid him. She didn\u2019t know now and hadn\u2019t known then if she wanted<\/p>\n

to lay him, but she had. And screamed when she came.

That had been near the end.

She remembered that too\u2014how it had been near the end. He had gotten married not long after, but it would have been near the end anyway. He was weak, and he was bent.

Doesn\u2019t matter anyway,<\/p>\n

she thought, and gave herself the old, good advice: Let it go.

Advice easier given than followed. It was a long time before Anderson got over into sleep that night. Old ghosts had stirred when she moved her book of undergraduate poems … or perhaps it was that high, mild wind, hooting the eaves and whistling the trees.

She had almost made it when Peter woke her up. Peter was howling in his sleep.

Anderson got up in a hurry, scared\u2014Peter had made a lot of noises in his sleep before this (not to mention some unbelievably noxious dogfarts), but he had never howled. It was like waking to the sound of a child screaming in the grip of a nightmare.

She went into the living room naked except for her socks and knelt by Peter, who was still on the rug by the stove.

\u201cPete,\u201d she muttered. \u201cHey, Pete, cool it.\u201d

She stroked the dog. Peter was shivering and jerked away when Anderson touched him, baring the eroded remains of his teeth. Then his eyes opened\u2014the bad one and the good one\u2014and he seemed to come back to himself. He whined weakly and thumped his tail against the floor.

\u201cYou all right?\u201d Anderson asked.

Peter licked her hand. \u201cThen lie down again. Stop whining. It\u2019s boring. Stop fucking off.\u201d

Peter lay down and closed his eyes. Anderson knelt, looking at him, troubled.

He\u2019s dreaming of that thing.

Her rational mind rejected that, but the night insisted on its own imperative\u2014it was true, and she knew it.

She went to bed at last, and sleep came sometime after two in the morning. She had a peculiar dream. In it she was groping in the dark … not trying to find something but to get away from something. She was in the woods. Branches whipped into her face and poked her arms. Sometimes she stumbled over roots and fallen trees. And then, ahead of her, a terrible green light shone out in a single pencillike ray. In her dream she thought of Poe\u2019s \u201cThe Tell-Tale Heart,\u201d the mad narrator\u2019s lantern, muffled up except for one tiny hole, which he used to direct a beam of light onto the evil eye he fancied his elderly benefactor possessed.

Bobbi Anderson felt her teeth fall out.

They went painlessly, all of them. The bottom ones tumbled, some outward, some back into her mouth, where they lay on her tongue or under it in hard little lumps. The top ones simply dropped down the front of her blouse. She felt one catch in her bra, which clasped in front, poking her skin.

The light. The green light. The light\u2014

<\/p>\n

5<\/span>
\u2014was wrong.

It wasn\u2019t just that it was gray and pearly, that light; it was expected that such a wind as had blown up the night before would bring a change in the weather. But Anderson knew there was something more than that wrong even before she looked at the clock on the nightstand. She picked it up in both hands and drew it close to her face, although her vision was a perfect 20\/20. It was quarter past three in the afternoon. She had gone to sleep late, given. But no matter how late she slept, either habit or the need to urinate always woke her up by nine o\u2019clock, ten at the latest. But she had slept a full twelve hours … and she was ravenous.

She shuffled out into the living room, still wearing only her socks, and saw that Peter was lying limply on his side, head back, yellow stubs of teeth showing, legs splayed out.

Dead,<\/p>\n

she thought with a cold and absolute certainty. Peter\u2019s dead. Died in the night.

She went to her dog, already anticipating the feel of cold flesh and lifeless fur. Then Peter uttered a muzzy, lip-flapping sound\u2014a blurry dog-snore. Anderson felt huge relief course through her. She spoke the dog\u2019s name aloud and Peter started up, almost guiltily, as if he was also aware of oversleeping. Anderson supposed he was\u2014dogs seemed to have an acutely developed sense of time.

\u201cWe slept late, fella,\u201d she said.

Peter got up and stretched first one hind leg and then the other. He looked around, almost comically perplexed, and then went to the door. Anderson opened it. Peter stood there for a moment, not liking the rain. Then he went out to do his business.

Anderson stood in the living room a moment longer, still marveling over her certainty that Peter had been dead. Just what in hell was wrong with her lately? Everything was doom and gloom. Then she headed for the kitchen to fix a meal … whatever you called breakfast at three in the afternoon.

On the way she diverted into the bathroom to do her own business. Then she paused in front of her reflection in the toothpaste-spotted mirror. A woman pushing forty. Graying hair, otherwise not too bad\u2014she didn\u2019t drink much, didn\u2019t smoke much, spent most of her time outside when she wasn\u2019t writing. Irish black hair\u2014no romance-novel blaze of red for her\u2014rather too long. Gray-blue eyes. Abruptly she bared her teeth, expecting for just a moment to see only smooth pink gums.

But her teeth were there\u2014all of them: Thank the fluoridated water in Utica, New York, for that. She touched them, let her fingers prove their bony reality to her brain.

But something wasn\u2019t right.

Wetness.

There was wetness on her upper thighs.

Oh no, oh shit, this is almost a week early, I just put clean sheets on the bed yesterday\u2014

But after she had showered, put a pad in a fresh pair of cotton panties, and pulled the whole works snug, she checked the sheets and saw them unmarked. Her period was early, but it had at least had the consideration to wait until she was almost awake. And there was no cause for alarm; she was fairly regular, but she had been both early and late from time to time; maybe diet, maybe subconscious stress, maybe some internal clock slipping a cog or two. She had no urge to grow old fast, but she often thought that having the whole inconvenient business of menstruation behind her would be a relief.

The last of her nightmare slipped away, and Bobbi Anderson went in to fix herself a very late breakfast.
<\/p>\n


2.<\/span>

ANDERSON DIGS<\/span>

<\/p>\n

1<\/span>
It rained steadily for the next three days. Anderson wandered restlessly around the house, made a trip with Peter into Augusta in the pickup for supplies she didn\u2019t really need, drank beer, and listened to old Beach Boys tunes while she made repairs around the house. Trouble was, there weren\u2019t really that many repairs that needed to be done. By the third day she was circling the typewriter, thinking maybe she would start the new book. She knew what it was supposed to be about: a young schoolmarm and a buffalo-hunter caught up in a range war in Kansas during the early 1850s\u2014a period when everyone in the midsection of the country seemed to be tuning up for the Civil War, whether they knew it or not. It would be a good book, she thought, but she didn\u2019t think it was quite \u201cready\u201d yet, whatever that meant (a sardonic mimic awoke in her mind, doing an Orson Welles voice: We will write no oater before its time).<\/p>\n

Still, her restlessness dug at her, and the signs were all there: an impatience with books, with the music, with herself. A tendency to drift off … and then she would be looking at the typewriter, wanting to wake it into some dream.

Peter also seemed restless, scratching at the door to go out and then scratching at it to come back in five minutes later, wandering around the place, lying down, then getting up again.

Low barometer,<\/p>\n

Anderson thought. That\u2019s all it is. Makes us both restless, cranky.

And her damned period. Usually she flowed heavy and then just stopped. Like turning off a faucet. This time she just went on leaking. Bad washer, ha-ha,<\/p>\n

she thought with no humor at all. She found herself sitting in front of the typewriter just after dark on the second rainy day, a blank sheet rolled into the carriage. She started to type and what came out was a bunch of X\u2019s and O\u2019s, like a kid\u2019s tic-tac-toe game, and then something that looked like a mathematical equation … which was stupid, since the last math she\u2019d taken was Algebra II in high school. These days, x was for crossing out the wrong word, and that was all. She pulled the blank sheet out and tossed it away.

After lunch on the third rainy day, she called the English Department at the university. Jim no longer taught there, not for eight years, but he still had friends on the faculty and kept in touch. Muriel in the office usually knew where he was.

And did this time. Jim Gardener, she told Anderson, was doing a reading in Fall River that night, June 24th, followed by two in Boston over the next three nights followed by readings and lectures in Providence and New Haven\u2014all part of something called the New England Poetry Caravan. Must be Patricia McCardle, Anderson thought, smiling a little.

\u201cSo he\u2019d be back … when? Fourth of July?\u201d

\u201cGee, I don\u2019t know when he\u2019ll be back, Bobbi,\u201d Muriel said. \u201cYou know Jim. His last reading\u2019s June 30th. That\u2019s all I can say for sure.\u201d

Anderson thanked her and hung up. She looked at the phone thoughtfully, calling up Muriel fully in her mind\u2014another Irish colleen (but Muriel had the expected red hair) just now reaching the far edge of her prime, round-faced, green-eyed, full-breasted. Had she slept with Jim? Probably. Anderson felt a spark of jealousy\u2014but not much of a spark. Muriel was okay. Just speaking to Muriel made her feel better\u2014someone who knew who she was, who could think of her as a real person, not just as a customer on the other side of the counter in an Augusta hardware store or as someone to say how-do to over the mailbox. She was solitary by nature, but not monastic … and sometimes simple human contact had a way of fulfilling her when she didn\u2019t even know she needed to be fulfilled.

And she supposed she knew now why she had wanted to get in contact with Jim\u2014talking with Muriel had done that, at least. The thing in the woods had stayed on her mind, and the idea that it was some sort of clandestine coffin had grown to a certainty. It wasn\u2019t writing<\/p>\n

she was restless to do; it was digging.<\/p>\n

She just hadn\u2019t wanted to do it on her own.

\u201cLooks like I\u2019ll have to, though, Pete,\u201d she said, sitting down in her rocker by the east window\u2014her reading chair. Peter glanced at her briefly, as if to say, Whatever you want, babe.<\/p>\n

Anderson sat forward, suddenly looking at Pete\u2014really looking<\/p>\n

at him. Peter looked back cheerfully enough, tail thumping on the floor. For a moment it seemed there was something different about Peter … something so obvious she should be seeing it.

If so, she wasn\u2019t.

She settled back, opening her book\u2014a master\u2019s thesis from the University of Nebraska, the most exciting thing about it the title: Range War and Civil War.<\/p>\n

She remembered thinking a couple of nights ago as her sister Anne would think: You\u2019re getting as funny in the head as Uncle Frank, Bobbi.<\/p>\n

Well … maybe.

Shortly she was deep into the thesis, making an occasional note on the legal pad she kept near. Outside, the rain continued to fall.

<\/p>\n

2<\/span>
The following day dawned clear and bright and flawless: a postcard summer day with just enough breeze to make the bugs keep their distance. Anderson pottered around the house until almost ten o\u2019clock, conscious of the growing pressure her mind was putting on her to get out there and dig it up, already. She could feel herself consciously pushing back against that urge (Orson Welles again\u2014We will dig up no body before its …<\/p>\n

oh, shut up, Orson). Her days of simply following the urge of the moment, a lifestyle that had once been catechized by the bald motto \u201cIf it feels good, do it,\u201d were over. It had never worked well for her, that philosophy\u2014in fact, almost every bad thing that had happened to her had its roots in some impulsive action. She attached no moral stigma to people who did live their lives according to impulse; maybe her intuitions just hadn\u2019t been that good.

She ate a big breakfast, added a scrambled egg to Peter\u2019s Gravy Train (Peter ate with more appetite than usual, and Anderson put it down to the end of the rainy spell), and then did the washing-up.

If her dribbles would just stop, everything would be fine. Forget it; we will stop no period before its time. Right, Orson? You\u2019re fucking-A.

Bobbi went outside, clapped an old straw cowboy hat on her head, and spent the next hour in the garden. Things out there were looking better than they had any right to, given the rain. The peas were coming on and the corn was rearing up good, as Uncle Frank would have said.

She quit at eleven. Fuck it. She went around the house to the shed, got the spade and shovel, paused, and added a crowbar. She started out of the shed, went back, and took a screwdriver and an adjustable wrench from the toolbox.

Peter started out with her as he always did, but this time Anderson said, \u201cNo, Peter,\u201d and pointed back at the house. Peter stopped, looking wounded. He whined and took a tentative step toward Anderson.

\u201cNo,<\/p>\n

Peter.\u201d

Peter gave in and headed back, head down, tail drooping dispiritedly. Anderson was sorry to see him go that way, but Peter\u2019s previous reaction to the plate in the ground had been bad. She stood a moment longer on the path which would lead her to the woods road, spade in one hand, shovel and crowbar in the other, watching as Peter mounted the back steps, nosed open the back door, and went into the house.

She thought: Something was different about him …<\/p>\n

is different about him. What is it?<\/p>\n

She didn\u2019t know. But for a moment, almost subliminally, her dream flickered back to her\u2014that arrow of poisonous green light … and her teeth all falling painlessly out of her gums.

Then it was gone and she set off toward the place where it was, that odd thing in the ground, listening to the crickets make their steady ree-ree-ree<\/p>\n

sound in this small back field which would soon be ready for its first cutting.

<\/p>\n

3<\/span>
At three that afternoon it was Peter who raised her from the semidaze in which she had been working, making her aware she was two damn-nears: damn-near starving and damn-near exhausted.

Peter was howling.

The sound raised gooseflesh on Anderson\u2019s back and arms. She dropped the shovel she had been using and backed away from the thing in the earth\u2014the thing that was no plate, no box, not anything she could understand. All she knew for sure was that she had fallen into a strange, thoughtless state she didn\u2019t like at all. This time she had done more than lose track of time; she felt as if she had lost track of herself.<\/p>\n

It was as if someone else had stepped into her head the way a man would step into a bulldozer or a payloader, simply firing her up and starting to yank the right levers.

Peter howled, nose pointing toward the sky\u2014long, chilling, mournful sounds.

\u201cStop it, Peter!\u201d<\/p>\n

Anderson yelled, and thankfully, Peter did. Any more of that and she might simply have turned and run.

Instead, she fought for control and got it. She backed up another step and cried out when something flapped loosely against her back. At her cry, Peter uttered one more short, yipping sound and fell silent again.

Anderson grabbed for whatever had touched her, thinking it might be … well, she didn\u2019t know what she thought it might be, but even before her hand closed on it, she remembered what it was. She had a hazy memory of stopping just long enough to hang her blouse on a bush; here it was.

She took it and put it on, getting the buttons wrong on the first try so that one tail hung down below the other. She rebuttoned it, looking at the dig she had begun\u2014and now that archaeological word seemed to fit what she was doing exactly. Her memories of the four and a half hours she\u2019d spent digging were like her memory of hanging her blouse on the bush\u2014hazy and broken. They were not memories; they were fragments.

But now, looking at what she had done, she felt awe as well as fear … and a mounting sense of excitement.

Whatever it was, it was huge. Not just big, but huge.

The spade, shovel, and crowbar lay at intervals along a fifteen-foot trench in the forest floor. She had made neat piles of black earth and chunks of rock at regular intervals. Sticking up from this trench, which was about four feet deep at the point where Anderson had originally stumbled over three inches of protruding gray metal, was the leading edge of some titanic object. Gray metal<\/p>\n

… some object<\/p>\n

…

You\u2019d ordinarily have a right to expect something better, more specific, from a writer, she thought, arming sweat from her forehead, but she was no longer sure the metal was steel. She thought now it might be a more exotic alloy, beryllium, magnesium, perhaps\u2014and composition aside, she had absolutely no idea what it was.

She began to unbutton her jeans so she could tuck in her blouse, then paused.

The crotch of the faded Levi\u2019s was soaked with blood.

Jesus. Jesus Christ. This isn\u2019t a period. This is Niagara Falls.

She was momentarily frightened, really frightened, then told herself to quit being a ninny. She had gone into some sort of daze and done digging a crew of four husky men could have been proud of … her, a woman who went one-twenty-five, maybe one-thirty, tops. Of course<\/p>\n

she was flowing heavily. She was fine\u2014in fact, should be grateful she wasn\u2019t cramping as well as gushing.

My, how poetic we are today, Bobbi,<\/p>\n

she thought, and uttered a harsh little laugh.

All she really needed was to clean herself up: a shower and a change would do fine. The jeans had been ready for either the trash or the ragbag anyway. Now there was one less worry in a troubled, confusing world, right? Right. No big deal.

She buttoned her pants again, not tucking the blouse in\u2014no sense ruining that as well, although God knew it wasn\u2019t exactly a Dior original. The feel of the sticky wetness down there when she moved made her grimace. God, she wanted to get cleaned up. In a hurry.

But instead of starting up the slope to the path, she walked back toward the thing in the earth, again driven to it. Peter howled, and the gooseflesh reappeared again. \u201cPeter, will you for Christ\u2019s sake shut UP!\u201d<\/p>\n

She hardly ever shouted at Pete\u2014really shouted at him\u2014but the goddam mutt was starting to make her feel like a behavioral-psychology subject. Gooseflesh when the dog howled instead of saliva at the sound of the bell, but the same principle.

Standing close to her find, she forgot about Peter and only stared wonderingly at it. After some moments she reached out and gripped it. Again she felt that curious sense of vibration\u2014it sank into her hand and then disappeared. This time she thought of touching a hull beneath which very heavy machinery is hard at work. The metal itself was so smooth that it had an almost greasy texture\u2014you expected some of it to come off on your hands.

She made a fist and rapped her knuckles on it. It made a dull sound, like a fist rapping on a thick chunk of mahogany. She stood a moment longer, then took the screwdriver from her back pocket, held it indecisively for a moment, and then, feeling oddly guilty\u2014feeling like a vandal\u2014she drew the blade down the exposed metal. It wouldn\u2019t scratch.

Her eyes suggested two further things, but either or both could have been an optical illusion. The first was that the metal seemed to grow slightly thicker as it went from its edge to the point where it disappeared into the earth. The second was that the edge was slightly curved. These two things\u2014if true\u2014suggested an idea that was at once exciting, ludicrous, frightening, impossible … and possessed of a certain mad logic.

She ran her palm over the smooth metal, then stepped away. What the hell was she doing, petting this goddam thing while the blood was running down her legs? And her period was the least of her concerns if what she was starting to think just might turn out to be the truth.

You better call somebody, Bobbi. Right now.

I\u2019ll call Jim. When he gets back.

Sure. Call a poet. Great idea. Then you can call the Reverend Moon. Maybe Edward Gorey and Gahan Wilson to draw pictures. Then you can hire a few rock bands and have fucking Woodstock 1988 out here. Get serious, Bobbi. Call the state police.

No. I want to talk to Jim first. Want him to see it. Want to talk to him about it. Meantime, I\u2019ll dig around it some. more.

It could be dangerous.

Yes. Not only could be, probably was\u2014hadn\u2019t she felt that? Hadn\u2019t Peter felt it? There was something else, too. Coming down the slope from the path this morning, she had found a dead woodchuck\u2014had almost stepped on it. Although the smell when she bent over the animal told her it had been dead two days at least, there had been no buzz of flies to warn her. There were no flies at all around ole Chuck, and Anderson could not remember ever having seen such a thing. There was no obvious sign of what had killed it, either, but believing that thing in the ground had had anything to do with it was boolsheet of the purest ray serene. Ole Chuck had probably gotten some farmer\u2019s poison bait and stumbled out here to die.

Go home. Change your pants. You\u2019re bloody and you stink.

She backed away from the thing, then turned and climbed the slope back to the path, where Peter jumped clumsily on her and began to lick her hand with an eagerness that was a little pathetic. Even a year ago he would have been trying to nose at her crotch, attracted by the smell there, but not now. Now all he could do was shiver.

\u201cYour own damn fault,\u201d Anderson said. \u201cI told<\/p>\n

you to stay home.\u201d All the same, she was glad Peter had come. If he hadn\u2019t, Anderson might have worked right through until nightfall … and the idea of coming to in the dark, with that thing bulking close by … that idea didn\u2019t fetch her.

She looked back from the path. The height gave her a more complete view of the thing. It jutted from the ground at a slight angle, she saw. Her impression that the leading edge had a slight curve recurred.

A plate, that\u2019s what I thought when I first dug around it with my fingers. A steel plate, not a dinner-plate, I thought, but maybe even then, with so little of it sticking out of the ground, it was really a dinner-plate I was thinking of. Or a saucer.

A flying fucking saucer.

<\/p>\n

4<\/span>
Back at the house, she showered and changed, using one of the Maxi-Pads even though the heavy menstrual flow already appeared to be lessening. Then she fixed herself a huge supper of canned baked beans and knockwurst. But she found herself too tired to do much more than pick at it. She put the remains-more than half\u2014down for Peter and went over to her rocker by the window. The thesis she had been reading was still on the floor beside the chair, her place marked with a torn-off matchbook cover. Her notepad was beside it. She picked it up, turned to a fresh page, and began to sketch the thing in the woods as she had seen it when she took that last look back.

She was no great shakes with a pen unless it was words she was making, but she had some small sketching talent. This sketch went very slowly, however, not just because she wanted it to be as exact as she could make it but because she was so tired. To make matters worse, Peter came over and nuzzled her hand, wanting to be patted.

She stroked Peter\u2019s head absently, erasing a jag his nose had put into the horizon-line of her sketch. \u201cYeah, you\u2019re a good dog, great dog, go check the mail, why don\u2019t you?\u201d

Peter trotted across the living room and nosed the screen door open. Anderson went back to work on her sketch, glancing up once to see Peter do his world-famous canine mail-retrieval trick. He put his left forepaw up on the mailbox post and then began to swipe at the door of the box. Joe Paulson, the postman, knew about Peter and always left it ajar. He got the door down, then lost his balance before he could hook the mail out with his paw. Anderson winced a little\u2014until this year, Peter had never lost his balance. Getting the mail had been his pi\u00e8ce de r\u00e9sistance,<\/p>\n

better than playing dead Viet Cong and much better than anything mundane like sitting up or \u201cspeaking\u201d for a dog biscuit. It wowed everyone who saw him do it, and Peter knew it … but these days it was a painful ritual to watch. It made Anderson feel the way she imagined she would feel if she saw Fred Astaire and Ginger Rogers as they were now, trying to do one of their old dance routines.

The dog managed to get up on the post again, and this time Peter hooked the mail-a catalogue and a letter (or a bill\u2014yes, with the end of the month coming, it was more likely a bill)\u2014out of the box with the first swipe of his paw. It fluttered to the road, and as Peter picked it up, Anderson dropped her eyes back to her sketch, telling herself to stop banging the goddam funeral bell for Peter every two minutes. The dog actually looked half-alive tonight; there had been nights recently when he\u2019d had to totter up on his hind legs three or four times before he was able to get his mail\u2014which usually came to no more than a free sample from Procter & Gamble or an advertising circular from K-Mart.

Anderson stared at her sketch closely, absently shading in the trunk of the big pine-tree with the split top. It wasn\u2019t a hundred-percent accurate … but it was pretty close. She\u2019d gotten the angle of the thing right, anyway.

She drew a box around it, then turned the box into a cube … as if to isolate the thing. The curve was obvious enough in her sketch, but had it really been there?

Yes. And what she was calling a metal plate\u2014it was really a hull, wasn\u2019t it? A glassy-smooth, rivetless hull.

You\u2019re losing your mind, Bobbi … you know that, don\u2019t you?

Peter scratched on the screen to be let in. Anderson went to the door, still looking at her sketch. Peter came in and dropped the mail on a chair in the hallway. Then he walked slowly down to the kitchen, presumably to see if there was anything he had overlooked on Anderson\u2019s plate.

Anderson picked up the two pieces of mail and wiped them on the leg of her jeans with a little grimace of disgust. It was a good trick, granted, but dog-spit on the mail was never going to be one of her favorite things. The catalogue was from Radio Shack\u2014they wanted to sell her a word processor. The bill was from Central Maine Power. That made her think briefly of Jim Gardener again. She tossed both on the table in the hall, went back to her chair, sat down again, flipped to a fresh page, and quickly copied her original sketch.

She frowned at the mild arc, which was probably a bit of extrapolation\u2014as if she had dug down maybe twelve or fourteen feet instead of just four. Well, so what? A little extrapolation didn\u2019t bother her; hell, that was part of a fiction writer\u2019s business, and people who thought it belonged solely to science fiction or fantasy writers had never looked through the other end of the telescope, had never been faced with the problem of filling in white spaces that no history could provide\u2014things like what had happened to the people who had colonized Roanoke Island, off the North Carolina coast, and then simply disappeared, for example, leaving no mark but the inexplicable word CROATOAN carved on a tree, or the Easter Island monoliths, or why the citizens of a little town in Utah called Blessing had all suddenly gone crazy\u2014or so it seemed\u2014on the same day in the summer of 1884. If you didn\u2019t know for sure, it was okay to imagine\u2014until and unless you found out different.

There was a formula by which circumference could be determined from an arc, she was quite sure of it. She had forgotten what the damned thing was, that was the only problem. But she could maybe get a rough idea\u2014always assuming her impression of just how much the thing\u2019s edge curved was accurate\u2014by estimating the thing\u2019s center point …

Bobbi went back to the hall table and opened its middle drawer, which was a sort of catchall. She rooted past untidy bundles of canceled checks, dead C, D, and nine-volt batteries (for some reason she had never been able to shitcan old batteries\u2014what you did with old batteries was throw them in a drawer, God knew why, it was just the Battery Graveyard instead of the one the elephants were supposed to have), bunches of rubber bands and wide red canning-rubbers, unanswered fan letters (she could no more throw out an unanswered fan letter than a dead battery), and recipes jotted on file-cards. At the very bottom of the drawer was a litter of small tools, and among them she found what she was looking for\u2014a compass with a yellow stub of pencil sleeved into the armature.

Sitting in the rocker again, Anderson turned to a fresh sheet and drew the leading edge of the thing in the earth for the third time. She tried to keep it in scale, but drew it a little bigger this time, not bothering with the surrounding trees and only suggesting the trench for the sake of perspective.

\u201cOkay, guesswork,\u201d she said, and dug the point of the compass into the yellow legal pad below the curved edge. She adjusted the compass\u2019s arc so it traced that edge fairly accurately\u2014and then she swept the compass around in a complete circle. She looked at it, then wiped her mouth with the heel of her hand. Her lips suddenly felt too loose and too wet.

\u201cBoolsheet,\u201d she whispered.

But it wasn\u2019t boolsheet. Unless her estimate of the edge\u2019s curvature and of midpoint were both wildly off the beam, she had unearthed the edge of an object which was at least three hundred yards in circumference.

Anderson dropped the compass and the pad on the floor and looked out the window. Her heart was beating too hard.

<\/p>\n

5<\/span>
As the sun went down, Anderson sat on her back porch staring across her garden toward the woods, and listened to the voices in her head.

In her junior year at college she had taken a Psychology Department seminar on creativity. She had been amazed\u2014and a little relieved\u2014to discover that she was not concealing some private neurosis; almost all imaginative people heard voices. Not just thoughts but actual voices inside their heads, different personae, each as clearly defined as voices on an old-time radio show. They came from the right side of the brain, the teacher explained\u2014the side which is most commonly associated with visions and telepathy and that striking human ability to create images by drawing comparisons and making metaphors.

There are no such things as flying saucers.

Oh yeah? Who says so?

The Air Force, for one. They closed the books on flying saucers twenty years ago. They were able to explain all but three percent of all verified sightings, and they said those last three were almost certainly caused by ephemeral atmospheric conditions<\/p>\n

\u2014stufflike sun-dogs, clear-air turbulence, pockets of clear-air electricity. Hell, the Lubbock Lights were front-page news, and all they turned out to be was … well, there were these traveling packs of moths, see? And the Lubbock streetlights hit their wings and reflected big light-colored moving shapes onto the low cloud masses that a stagnant weather pattern kept over the town for a week. Most of the country spent that week thinking someone dressed like Michael Rennie in The Day the Earth Stood Still was going to come walking up Lubbock\u2019s main drag with his pet robot Gort clanking along beside him, demanding to be taken to our leader. And they were moths. Do you like it? Don\u2019t you have to like it?

This voice was so clear it was amusing\u2014it was that of Dr. Klingerman, who had taught the seminar. It lectured her with good old Klingy\u2019s unfailing\u2014if rather shrill\u2014enthusiasm. Anderson smiled and lit a cigarette. Smoking a little too much tonight, but the damned things were going stale anyway.

In 1947 an Air Force captain named Mantell flew too high while he was chasing a flying saucer-what he thought was a flying saucer. He blacked out. His plane crashed. Mantell was killed. He died chasing a reflection of Venus on a high scud of clouds\u2014a sun-dog, in other words. So there are reflections of moths, reflections of Venus, and probably reflections in a golden eye as well, Bobbi, but there are no flying saucers.

Then what is that in the ground?

The voice of the lecturer fell still. It didn\u2019t know. So in its place came Anne\u2019s voice, telling her for the third time that she was getting funny in the head, getting weird like Uncle Frank, saying they\u2019d be measuring her for one of those canvas coats you wear backwards soon; they\u2019d cart her up to the asylum in Bangor or the one in Juniper Hill, and she could rave about flying saucers in the woods while she wove baskets. It was Sissy\u2019s voice, all right; she could call her on the phone right now, tell her what had happened, and get that scripture by chapter and by verse. She knew it.

But was it right?

No. It wasn\u2019t. Anne would equate her sister\u2019s mostly solitary life with madness no matter what Bobbi did or said. And yes, the idea that the thing in the earth was some sort of spaceship certainly was mad … but was playing with the possibility, at least until it was disproven, mad? Anne would think so, but Anderson did not. Nothing wrong with keeping an open mind.

Yet the speed with which the possibility had occurred to her …

She got up and went inside. Last time she had fooled with that thing in the woods, she had slept for twelve hours. She wondered if she could expect a similar sleep marathon this time. She felt almost tired enough to sleep twelve hours, God knew.

Leave it alone, Bobbi. It\u2019s dangerous.

But she wouldn\u2019t, she thought, pulling off her OPUS FOR PRESIDENT T-shirt. Not just yet.

The trouble with living alone, she had discovered\u2014and the reason why most people she knew didn\u2019t like to be alone even for a little white\u2014was that the longer you lived alone, the louder those voices on the right side of your brain got. As the yardsticks of rationality began to shrink in the silence, those voices did not just request attention; they demanded<\/p>\n

it. It was easy to become frightened of them, to think they meant madness after all.

Anne would sure think they did,<\/p>\n

Bobbi thought, climbing into bed. The lamp cast a clean and comforting circle of light on the counterpane, but she left the thesis she\u2019d been reading on the floor. She kept expecting the cramps that usually accompanied her occasional early and heavy menstrual flow, but so far they hadn\u2019t come. Not that she was anxious for them to put in an appearance, you should understand.

She crossed her hands behind her head and looked at the ceiling.

No, you\u2019re not crazy at all, Bobbi,<\/p>\n

she thought. You think Gard\u2019s getting wiggy but you\u2019re perfectly all right\u2014isn\u2019t that also a sign that you\u2019re wobbling? There\u2019s even a name for it … denial and substitution. \u201cI\u2019m all right, it\u2019s the world that\u2019s crazy. \u201d

All true. But she still felt firmly in control of herself, and sure of one thing: she was saner in Haven than she had been in Cleaves Mills, and much saner than she had been in Utica. A few more years in Utica, a few more years around Sissy, and she would have been as mad as a hatter. Anderson believed Anne actually saw driving her close relatives crazy as part of her … her job? No, nothing so mundane. As part of her sacred mission in life.

She knew what was really troubling her, and it wasn\u2019t the speed with which the possibility had occurred. It was the feeling of certainty.<\/p>\n

She would keep an open mind, but the struggle would be to keep it open in favor of what Anne would call \u201csanity.\u201d Because she knew what she had found, and it filled her with fear and awe and a restless, moving excitement.

See, Anne, ole Bobbi didn\u2019t move up to Sticksville and go crazy; ole Bobbi moved up here and went sane. Insanity is limiting possibilities, Anne, can you dig it? Insanity is refusing to go down certain paths of speculation even though the logic is there… like a toker. for the turnstile. See what I mean? No? Of course you don\u2019t. You don\u2019t and you never did. Then go away, Anne. Stay in Utica and grind your teeth in your sleep until there\u2019s nothing left of them, make whoever is mad enough to stay within range of your voice crazy, be my guest,<\/p>\n

but stay out of my head.

The thing in the earth was a ship from space.

There. It was out. No more bullshit. Never mind Anne, never mind the Lubbock Lights or how the Air Force had closed its file on flying saucers. Never mind the chariots of the gods, or the Bermuda Triangle, or how Elijah was drawn up to heaven in a wheel of fire. Never mind any of it\u2014her heart knew what her heart knew. It was a ship, and it had either landed or crash-landed a long time ago\u2014maybe millions of years ago.

God!

She lay in bed, hands behind her head. She was calm enough, but her heart was beating fast, fast, fast.

Then another voice, and this was the voice of her dead grandfather, repeating something Anne\u2019s voice had said earlier.

Leave it alone, Bobbi. It\u2019s dangerous.

That momentary vibration. Her first premonition, suffocating and positive, that she had found the edge of some weird steel coffin. Peter\u2019s reaction. Starting her period early, only spotting here at the farm but bleeding like a stuck pig when she was close to it. Losing track of time, sleeping the clock all the way around. And don\u2019t forget ole Chuck the Woodchuck. Chuck had smelled gassy and decomposed, but there were no flies. No flies on Chuck, you might say.

None of that shit adds up to Shinola. I\u2019ll buy the possibility of a ship in the earth because no matter how crazy it sounds at first, the logic\u2019s still there. But there\u2019s no logic to the rest of this stuff; they\u2019re loose beads rolling around on the table. Thread them onto a string and maybe I\u2019ll buy it-I\u2019ll think about it, anyway. Okay?

Her grandfather\u2019s voice again, that slow, authoritative voice, the only one in the house that had even been able to strike Anne silent as a kid.

Those things all happened after you found it, Bobbi. That\u2019s your string.

No. Not enough.

Easy enough to talk back to her grandfather now; the man was sixteen years in his grave. But it was her grandfather\u2019s voice that followed her down to sleep, nevertheless.

Leave it alone, Bobbi. It\u2019s dangerous<\/p>\n

\u2014

\u2014and you know that, too.
<\/p>\n


3.<\/span>

PETER SEES THE LIGHT<\/span>

<\/p>\n

1<\/span>
She thought she had seen something different about Peter, but hadn\u2019t been able to tell exactly what it was. When Anderson woke up the next morning (at a perfectly normal nine o\u2019clock), she saw it almost at once.

She stood at the counter, pouring Gravy Train into Peter\u2019s old red dish. As always, Peter came strolling in at the sound. The Gravy Train was fairly new; up until this year the deal had always been Gaines Meal in the morning, half a can of Rival canned dogfood at night, and everything Pete could catch in the woods in between. Then Peter had stopped eating the Gaines Meal and it had taken Anderson almost a month to catch on\u2014Peter wasn\u2019t bored; what remained of his teeth simply couldn\u2019t manage to crunch up the nuggets anymore. So now he got Gravy Train … the equivalent, she supposed, of an old man\u2019s poached egg for breakfast.

She ran warm water over the Gravy Train nuggets, then stirred them with the old battered spoon she kept for the purpose. Soon the softening nuggets floated in a muddy liquid that actually did look like gravy … either that,<\/p>\n

Anderson thought, or something out of a backed-up septic tank.

\u201cHere you go,\u201d she said, turning away from the sink. Peter was now in his accustomed spot on the linoleum\u2014a polite distance away so Anderson wouldn\u2019t trip over him when she turned around\u2014and thumping his tail. \u201cHope you enjoy it. Myself, I think I\u2019d ralph my g\u2014\u201d

That was where she stopped, bent over with Peter\u2019s red dish in her right hand, her hair falling over one eye. She brushed it away.

\u201cPete?\u201d she heard herself say.

Peter looked at her quizzically for a moment and then padded forward to get his morning kip. A moment later he was slurping it up enthusiastically.

Anderson straightened, looking at her dog, rather glad she could no longer see Peter\u2019s face. In her head her grandfather\u2019s voice told her again to leave it alone, it was dangerous, and did she need any more string for her beads?

There are about a million people in this country alone who would come running if they got wind of this kind of dangerous, Anderson thought. God knows how many in the rest of the world. And is that all it does? How is it on cancer, do you suppose?

All the strength suddenly ran out of her legs. She felt her way backward until she touched one of the kitchen chairs. She sat down and watched Peter eat.

The milky cataract which had covered his left eye was now half gone.

<\/p>\n

2<\/span>
\u201cI don\u2019t have the slightest idea,\u201d the vet said that afternoon.

Anderson sat in the examining room\u2019s only chair while Peter sat obediently on the examining table. Anderson found herself remembering how she had dreaded the possibility of having to bring Peter to the vet\u2019s this summer … only now it didn\u2019t look as if Peter would have to be put down after all.

\u201cBut it isn\u2019t just my imagination?\u201d Anderson asked, and she supposed that what she really wanted was for Dr. Etheridge to either confirm or confute the Anne in her head: It\u2019s what you deserve, living out there alone with your smelly dog….

\u201cNope,\u201d Etheridge said, \u201calthough I can understand why you feel flummoxed. I feel a little flummoxed myself. His cataract is in active remission. You can get down, Peter.\u201d Peter climbed down from the table, going first to Etheridge\u2019s stool and then to the floor and then to Anderson.

Anderson put her hand on Peter\u2019s head and looked closely at Etheridge, thinking: Did you see that?<\/p>\n

Not quite wanting to say it out loud. For a moment Etheridge met her eyes, and then he looked away. I saw it, yes, but I\u2019m not going to admit that I saw it.<\/p>\n

Peter had gotten down carefully, in a descent that was miles from the devil-take-the-hindmost bounds of the puppy he had once been, but neither was it the trembling, tentative, wobbly descent Peter would have made even a week ago, cocking his head unnaturally to the right so he could see where he was going, his balance so vague that your heart stopped until he was down with no bones broken. Peter came down with the conservative yet solid confidence of the elder statesman he had been two or three years ago. Some of it, Anderson supposed, was the fact that the vision in his left eye was returning\u2014Etheridge had confirmed that with a few simple perception tests. But the eye wasn\u2019t all of it. The rest was overall improved body coordination. Simple as that. Crazy, but simple.

And the shrinking cataract hadn\u2019t caused Pete\u2019s muzzle to return to salt-and-pepper from an almost solid white, had it? Anderson had noticed that in the pickup truck as they headed down to Augusta. She had almost driven off the road.

How much of this was Etheridge seeing and not being prepared to admit he was seeing? Quite a bit, Anderson guessed, but part of it was just that Etheridge wasn\u2019t Doc Daggett.

Daggett had seen Peter at least twice a year during the first ten years of Peter\u2019s life … and then there were the things that came up, like the time Pete had mixed in with a porcupine, for instance, and Daggett had removed the quills, one by one, whistling the theme music from The Bridge on the River Kwai<\/p>\n

as he did so, soothing the trembling year-old dog with one big kindly hand. On another occasion Peter had come limping home with a backside full of birdshot\u2014a cruel present from a hunter either too stupid to look before he shot or perhaps sadistic enough to inflict misery on a dog because he couldn\u2019t find a partridge or pheasant to inflict it on. Dr. Daggett would have seen all<\/p>\n

the changes in Peter, and would not have been able to deny them even if he had wished to. Dr. Daggett would have taken off his pink-rimmed glasses, polished them on his white coat, and said something like: We have to find out where he\u2019s been and what he\u2019s gotten into, Roberta. This is serious. Dogs don\u2019t just get younger, and that is what Peter appears to be doing.<\/p>\n

That would have forced Anderson to reply: I know where he\u2019s been, and I\u2019ve got a pretty good idea of what did it.<\/p>\n

And that would have taken a lot of the pressure off, wouldn\u2019t it? But old Doc Daggett had sold the practice to Etheridge, who seemed nice enough, but who was still something of a stranger, and retired to Florida. Etheridge had seen Peter more often than Daggett had done\u2014four times in the last year, as it happened\u2014because as Peter grew older he had grown steadily more infirm. But he still hadn\u2019t seen him as often as his predecessor … and, she suspected, he didn\u2019t have his predecessor\u2019s clear-eyed perceptions. Or his guts.

From the ward behind them, a German shepherd suddenly exploded a string of heavy barks that sounded like a string of canine curses. Other dogs picked it up. Peter\u2019s ears cocked forward and he began to tremble under Anderson\u2019s hand. The Benjamin Button routine apparently hadn\u2019t done a thing for the beagle\u2019s equanimity, Anderson thought; once through his puppyhood storms, Peter had been so laid-back he was damn near paralytic. This high-strung trembling was brand-new.

Etheridge was listening to the dogs with a slight frown\u2014now almost all of them were barking.

\u201cThanks for seeing us on such short notice,\u201d Anderson said. She had to raise her voice to be heard. A dog in the waiting room also started to bark\u2014the quick, nervous yappings of a very small animal … a Pom or a poodle, most likely. \u201cIt was very\u2014\u201d Her voice broke momentarily. She felt a vibration under her fingertips and her first thought

(the ship)

was of the thing in the woods. But she knew what this vibration was. Although she had felt it very, very seldom, there was no mystery about it.

This vibration was coming from Peter. Peter was growling, very low and deep in his throat.

\u201c\u2014kind of you, but I think we ought to split. It sounds like you\u2019ve got a mutiny on your hands.\u201d She meant it as a joke, but it no longer sounded like a joke. Suddenly the entire small complex\u2014the cinderblock square that was Etheridge\u2019s waiting room and treatment room, plus the attached cinderblock rectangle that was his ward and operating theater\u2014was in an uproar. All the dogs out back were barking, and in the waiting room the Pom had been joined by a couple of other dogs … and a feminine, wavering wail that was unmistakably feline.

Mrs. Alden popped in, looking distressed. \u201cDr. Etheridge\u2014\u201d

\u201cAll right,\u201d he said, sounding cross. \u201cExcuse me, Ms. Anderson.\u201d

He left in a hurry, heading for the ward first. When he opened the door, the noise of the dogs seemed to double\u2014\u2014they\u2019re going bugshit,<\/p>\n

Anderson thought, and that was all she had time to think, because Peter almost lunged out from under her hand. That idling growl deep in his throat suddenly roughened into a snarl. Etheridge, already hurrying down the ward\u2019s central corridor, dogs barking all around him and the door swinging slowly shut on its pneumatic elbow behind him, didn\u2019t hear, but Anderson did, and if she hadn\u2019t been lucky in her grab for Peter\u2019s collar, the beagle would have been across the room like a shot and into the ward after the doctor. The trembling and the deep growl … those hadn\u2019t been fear, she realized. They had been rage\u2014it was inexplicable, completely unlike Peter, but that\u2019s what it had been.

Peter\u2019s snarl turned to a strangled sound\u2014yark<\/p>\n

!\u2014as Anderson pulled him back by the collar. He turned his head, and in Peter\u2019s rolling red-rimmed right eye Anderson saw what she would later characterize only as fury at being turned from the course he wanted to follow. She could acknowledge the possibility that there was a flying saucer three hundred yards around its outer rim buried on her property; the possibility that some emanation or vibration from this ship had killed a woodchuck that had the bad luck to get a little too close, killed it so completely and unpleasantly that even the flies seemingly wanted no part of it; she could deal with an anomalous menstrual period, a canine cataract in remission, even with the seeming certainty that her dog was somehow growing younger.

All this, yes.

But the idea that she had seen an insane hate for her, for Bobbi Anderson, in her good old dog Peter\u2019s eyes …no.

<\/p>\n

3<\/span>
That moment was thankfully brief. The door to the ward shut, muffling the cacophony. Some of the tenseness seemed to go out of Peter. He was still trembling, but at least he sat down again.

\u201cCome on, Pete, we\u2019re getting out of here,\u201d Anderson said. She was badly shaken\u2014much more so than she would later admit to Jim Gardener. For to admit that would have perhaps led back to that furious leer of rage she had seen in Peter\u2019s good eye.

She fumbled for the unfamiliar leash which she had taken off Peter as soon as they got into the examination room (that dogs should be leashed when owners brought them in for examination was a requirement Anderson had always found annoying\u2014until now), almost dropping it. At last she managed to attach it to Peter\u2019s collar.

She led Peter to the door of the waiting room and pushed it open with her foot. The noise was worse than ever. The yapper was indeed a Pomeranian, the property of a fat woman wearing bright yellow slacks and a yellow top. Fatso was trying to hold the Pom, telling it to \u201cbe a good boy, Eric, be a good boy for Mommy.\u201d Very little save the dog\u2019s bright and somehow ratty eyes were visible between Mommy\u2019s large and flabby arms.

\u201cMs. Anderson\u2014\u201d Mrs. Alden began. She looked bewildered and a little frightened, a woman trying to conduct business as usual in a place that had suddenly become a madhouse. Anderson understood how she felt.

The Pom spotted Peter\u2014Anderson would later swear that was what set it off\u2014and seemed to go crazy. It certainly had no problem choosing a target. It sank its sharp teeth into one of Mommy\u2019s arms.

\u201cCocksucker!\u201d<\/p>\n

Mommy screamed, and dropped the Pom on the floor. Blood began to run down her arm.

At the same time, Peter lunged forward, barking and snarling, fetching up at the end of the short leash hard enough to jerk Anderson forward. Her right arm flagged out straight. With the clear eye of her writer\u2019s mind Anderson saw exactly what was going to happen next. Peter the beagle and Eric the Pom were going to meet in the middle of the room like David and Goliath. But the Pom had no brains, let alone a sling. Peter would tear its head off with one large chomp.

This was averted by a girl of perhaps eleven, who was sitting to Mommy\u2019s left. The girl had a Porta-Carry on her lap. Inside was a large blacksnake, its scales glowing with luxuriant good health. The little girl shot out one jeans-clad leg with the unearthly reflexes of the very young and stomped on the trailing end of Eric\u2019s leash. Eric did one complete snap-roll. The little girl reeled the Pom in. She was by far the calmest person in the waiting room.

\u201cWhat if that little fucker gave me the rabies?\u201d<\/p>\n

Mommy was screaming as she advanced across the room toward Mrs. Alden. Blood twinkled between the fingers clapped to her arm. Peter\u2019s head turned toward her as she passed, and Anderson pulled him back, heading toward the door. Fuck the little sign in Mrs. Alden\u2019s cubbyhole reading IT IS CUSTOMARY TO PAY CASH FOR PROFESSIONAL SERVICES UNLESS OTHER ARRANGEMENTS HAVE BEEN MADE IN ADVANCE. She wanted to get out of here and drive the speed limit all the way home and have a drink. Cutty. A double. On second thought, make that a triple.

From her left came a long, low, virulent hissing sound. Anderson turned in that direction and saw a cat that might have stepped out of a Halloween decoration. Black except for a single dab of white at the end of its tail, it had backed up as far as its carrying cage would allow. Its back was humped up; its fur stood straight up in hackles; its green eyes, fixed unwaveringly on Peter, glowed fantastically. Its pink mouth was jointed wide, ringed with teeth.

\u201cGet your dog out, lady,\u201d the woman with the cat said in a voice cold as a cocking trigger. \u201cBlacky don\u2019t like im.\u201d

Anderson wanted to tell her she didn\u2019t care if Blacky farted or blew a tin whistle, but she would not think of this obscure but somehow exquisitely apt expression until later\u2014she rarely did in hot situations. Her characters always knew exactly the right things to say, and she rarely had to deliberate over them\u2014they came easily and naturally. This was almost never the case in real life.

\u201cHold your water,\u201d was the best she could do, and she spoke in such a craven mutter that she doubted if Blacky\u2019s owner had the slightest idea what she had said, or maybe even that she had said anything at all. She really was pulling Peter now, using the leash to yank the dog along in a way she hated to see a dog pulled whenever she observed it being done on the street. Peter was making coughing noises in his throat and his tongue was a saliva-dripping runner hanging askew from one side of his mouth. He stared at a boxer whose right foreleg was in a cast. A big man in a blue mechanic\u2019s coverall was holding the boxer\u2019s rope leash with both hands; had, in fact, taken a double-twist of the hayrope around one big grease-stained fist and was still having trouble holding his dog, which could have killed Peter as quickly and efficiently as Peter himself could have the Pomeranian. The boxer was pulling mightily in spite of its broken leg, and Anderson had more faith in the mechanic\u2019s grip than she did the hayrope leash, which appeared to be fraying.

It seemed to Anderson that she fumbled for the knob of the outer door with her free hand for a hundred years. It was like having a nightmare where your hands are full and your pants start, slowly and inexorably, to slip down.

Peter did this. Somehow.

She turned the knob, then took one final hasty glance around the waiting room. It had become an absurd little no-man\u2019s-land. Mommy was demanding first aid of Mrs. Alden (and apparently really did need some; blood was now coursing down her arm in freshets, spotting her yellow slacks and white institutional shoes); Blacky the cat was still hissing; even Dr. Etheridge\u2019s gerbils were going mad in the complicated maze of plastic tubes and towers on the far shelf that made up their home; Eric the Crazed Pomeranian stood at the end of his leash barking at Peter in a strangled voice. Peter was snarling back.

Anderson\u2019s eye fell on the little girl\u2019s blacksnake and saw that it had reared up like a cobra inside its Porta-Carry and was also looking at Peter, its fangless mouth yawning, its narrow pink tongue shuttling at the air in stiff little jabs.

Blacksnakes don\u2019t do that, I never saw a blacksnake do that in my life.

Now in something very close to real horror, Anderson fled, dragging Peter after her.

<\/p>\n

4<\/span>
Pete began to calm down almost as soon as the door sighed shut behind them. He stopped coughing and dragging on the leash and began to walk at Anderson\u2019s side, glancing at her occasionally in that way that said I don\u2019t like this leash and I\u2019m<\/p>\n

never going to like it, but okay, okay, if it\u2019s what you want.<\/p>\n

By the time they were both in the cab of the pickup, Peter was entirely his old self again.

Anderson was not.

Her hands were shaking so badly that she had to try three times before she could get the ignition key into its slot. Then she popped the clutch and stalled the engine. The Chevy pickup gave a mighty jerk and Peter tumbled off the seat onto the floor. He gave Anderson a reproachful beagle look (although all dogs are capable of reproachful looks, only beagles seem to have mastered that long-suffering stare). Where did you say you got your license, Bobbi?<\/p>\n

that expression seemed to ask. Sears and<\/p>\n

Roebuck? Then he climbed up on the seat again. Anderson was already finding it hard to believe that only five minutes ago Peter had been growling and snarling, a bad-tempered dog she had never encountered before, apparently ready to bite anything that moved, and that expression, that …<\/p>\n

But her mind snapped shut on that before it could go any further.

She got the engine going again and then headed out of the parking lot. As she passed the side of the building\u2014AUGUSTA VETERINARY CLINIC, the neat sign read\u2014she rolled her window down. A few barks and yaps. Nothing out of the ordinary.

It had stopped.

And that wasn\u2019t all that had stopped, she thought. Although she couldn\u2019t be completely sure, she thought her period was over, too. If so, good riddance to bad rubbish.

To coin a phrase.

<\/p>\n

5<\/span>
Bobbi didn\u2019t want to wait\u2014or couldn\u2019t\u2014to get back before having the drink she had promised herself. Just outside the Augusta city limits was a roadhouse that went by the charming name of the Big Lost Weekend Bar and Grille (Whopper Spareribs Our Specialty; The Nashville Kitty-Cats This Fri and Sad).

Anderson pulled in between an old station wagon and a John Deere tractor with a dirty harrow on the back with its blades kicked up. Further down was a big old Buick with a horse-trailer behind. Anderson had kept away from that on purpose.

\u201cStay,\u201d Anderson said, and Peter, now curled up on the seat, gave her a look as if to say, Why would I want to go anywhere with you? So you can choke me some more with that stupid leash?

The Big Lost Weekend was dark and nearly deserted on a Wednesday afternoon, its dance floor a cavern which glimmered faintly. The place reeked of sour beer. The bartender cum<\/p>\n

counterman strolled down and said,

\u201cHowdy, purty lady. The chili\u2019s on special. Also\u2014\u201d

\u201cI\u2019d like Cutty Sark,\u201d Anderson said. \u201cDouble. Water back.\u201d

\u201cYou always drink like a man?\u201d

\u201cUsually from a glass,\u201d Anderson said, a quip which made no sense at all, but she felt very tired … and harrowed to the bone. She went into the ladies\u2019 to change her pad and did slip one of the minis from her purse into the crotch of her panties as a precaution … but precaution was all it was, and that was a relief. It seemed that the cardinal had flown off for another month.

She returned to her stool in a better humor than she had left it, and felt better still when she had gotten half the drink inside her.

\u201cSay, I sure didn\u2019t mean to offend you,\u201d the bartender said. \u201cIt gets lonely in here, afternoons. When a stranger comes in, my lip gets runny.\u201d

\u201cMy fault,\u201d Anderson said. \u201cI haven\u2019t been having the best day of my life.\u201d

She finished the drink and sighed.

\u201cYou want another one, miss?\u201d

I think I liked \u201cpurty lady\u201d better,<\/p>\n

Anderson thought, and shook her head. \u201cI\u2019ll take a glass of milk, though. Otherwise I\u2019ll have acid indigestion all afternoon.\u201d

The bartender brought her the milk. Anderson sipped it and thought about what had happened at the vet\u2019s. The answer was quick and simple: she didn\u2019t know.

But I\u2019ll tell you what happened when you brought him in,<\/p>\n

she thought. Not a thing.

Her mind seized on this. The waiting room had been almost as crowded when she brought Peter in as it had been when she dragged him back out, only there had been no bedlam scene the first time. The place had not been quiet\u2014animals of different types and species, many of them ancient and instinctive antagonists, do not make for a library atmosphere when brought together\u2014but it had been normal. Now, with the booze working in her, she recalled the man in the mechanic\u2019s coverall leading the boxer in. The boxer had looked at Peter. Peter had looked mildly back. No big deal.

So?

So drink your milk and get on home and forget it.

Okay. And what about that thing in the woods? Do I forget that, too?

Instead of an answer, her grandfather\u2019s voice came: By the way, Bobbi, what\u2019s that thing doing to you? Have you thought about that?

She hadn\u2019t.

Now that she had, she was tempted to order another drink … except another, even a single, would make her drunk, and did she really want to be sitting in this huge barn in the early afternoon, getting drunk alone, waiting for the inevitable someone (maybe the bartender himself) to cruise up and ask what a pretty place like this was doing around a girl like her?

She left a five on the counter and the bartender saluted her. On her way out she saw a pay phone. The phone-book was dirty and dog-eared and smelled of used bourbon, but at least it was still there. Anderson deposited twenty cents, crooked the handset between shoulder and ear while she hunted through the V\u2019s in the Yellow Pages, then called Etheridge\u2019s clinic. Mrs. Alden sounded quite composed. In the background she could hear one dog barking. One.

\u201cI didn\u2019t want you to think I stiffed you,\u201d she said, \u201cand I\u2019ll mail your leash back tomorrow.\u201d

\u201cNot at all, Ms. Anderson,\u201d she said. \u201cAfter all the years you\u2019ve done business with us, you\u2019re the last person we\u2019d worry about when it comes to deadbeats. As for leashes, we\u2019ve got a closetful.\u201d

\u201cThings seemed a little crazy there for a while.\u201d

\u201cBoy, were they ever! We had to call Medix for Mrs. Perkins. I didn\u2019t think it was bad\u2014she\u2019ll have needed stitches, of course, but lots of people who need stitches get to the doctor under their own power.\u201d She lowered her voice a little, offering Anderson a confidence that she probably wouldn\u2019t have offered a man. \u201cThank God it was her own dog that bit her. She\u2019s the sort of woman who starts shouting lawsuit at the drop of a hat.\u201d

\u201cAny idea what might have caused it?\u201d

\u201cNo\u2014neither does Dr. Etheridge. The heat after the rain, maybe. Dr. Etheridge said he heard of something like it once at a convention. A vet from California said that all the animals in her clinic had what she called \u2018a savage spell\u2019 just before the last big quake out there.\u201d

\u201cIs that so?\u201d

\u201cThere was an earthquake in Maine last year,\u201d Mrs. Alden said. \u201cI hope there won\u2019t be another one. That nuclear plant at Wiscasset is too close for comfort.\u201d

Just ask Gard,<\/p>\n

Bobbi thought. She said thanks again and hung up.

Anderson went back to the truck. Peter was sleeping. He opened his eyes when Anderson got in, then closed them again. His muzzle lay on his paws. The gray on that muzzle was fading away. No question about it; no question at all.

And by the way, Bobbi, what\u2019s that thing doing to<\/p>\n

you?

Shut up, Granddad.

She drove home. And after fortifying herself with a second Scotch\u2014a weak one\u2014she went into the bathroom and stood close to the mirror, first examining her face and then running her fingers through her hair, lifting it and then letting it drop.

The gray was still there\u2014all of it that had so far come in, as far as she could tell.

She never would have thought she would be glad to see gray hair, but she was. Sort of.

<\/p>\n

6<\/span>
By early evening, dark clouds had begun to build up in the west, and by dark it had commenced thundering. The rains were going to return, it seemed, at least for a one-night stand. Anderson knew she wouldn\u2019t get Peter outside that night to do more than the most pressing doggy business; since his puppyhood, the beagle had been utterly terrified of thunderstorms.

Anderson sat in her rocker by the window, and if someone had been there she supposed it would have looked like she was reading, but what she was really doing was grinding: grinding grimly away at the thesis Range War and Civil War.<\/p>\n

It was as dry as dust, but she thought it was going to be extremely useful when she finally got around to the new one … which should be fairly soon now.

Each time the thunder rolled, Peter edged a little closer to the rocker and Anderson, seeming almost to grin shamefacedly. Yeah, it\u2019s not going to hurt me, I know, I know, but I\u2019ll just get a little closer to you, okay? And if there comes a real blast, I\u2019ll just about crowd you out of that fucking rocker, what do you say? You don\u2019t mind, do you, Bobbi?

The storm held off until nine o\u2019clock, and by then Anderson was pretty sure they were going to have a good one\u2014what Havenites called \u201ca real Jeezer.\u201d She went into the kitchen, rummaged in the walk-in closet that served as her pantry, and found her Coleman gas lantern on a high shelf. Peter followed directly behind her, tail between his legs, shamefaced grin on his face. Anderson almost fell over him coming out of the closet with the lantern.

\u201cDo you mind, Peter?\u201d

Peter gave a little ground … and then crowded up to Anderson\u2019s ankles again, when thunder cannonaded hard enough to rattle the windows. As Anderson got back to her chair, lightning sheeted blue-white and the phone tinged. The wind began to rise, making the trees rustle and sigh.

Peter sat hard by the rocker, looking up at Anderson pleadingly.

\u201cOkay,\u201d she said with a sigh. \u201cCome on up, jerk.\u201d

Peter didn\u2019t have to be asked twice. He sprang into Anderson\u2019s lap, getting her crotch a pretty good one with one forepaw. He always seemed to whang her there or on one boob; he didn\u2019t aim\u2014it was just one of those mysterious things, like the way elevators invariably stopped at every floor when you were in a hurry. If there was a defense, Bobbi Anderson had yet to find it.

Thunder tore across the sky. Peter crowded against her. His smell\u2014Eau de Beagle\u2014<\/p>\n

filled Anderson\u2019s nose.

\u201cWhy don\u2019t you just jump down my throat and have done with it, Pete?\u201d

Peter grinned his shamefaced grin, as if to say I know it, I know it, don\u2019t rub it in.

The wind rose. The lights began to flicker, a sure sign that Roberta Anderson and Central Maine Power were about to bid each other a fond adieu … at least until three or four in the morning. Anderson laid the thesis aside and put her arm around her dog. She didn\u2019t really mind the occasional summer storm, or the winter blizzards, for that matter. She liked their big power. She liked the sight and sound of that power working on the land in its crude and blindly positive way. She sensed insensate compassion in the workings of such storms. She could feel this one working inside her\u2014the hair on her arms and the nape of her neck stirred, and a particularly close shot of lightning left her feeling almost galvanized with energy.

She remembered an odd conversation she\u2019d once had with Jim Gardener. Gard had a steel plate in his skull, a souvenir of a skiing accident that had almost killed him at the age of seventeen. Gardener had told her that once, while changing a light bulb, he had gotten a hell of a shock by inadvertently sticking his forefinger into the socket. This was hardly uncommon; the peculiar part was that, for the next week, he had heard music and announcers and newscasts in his head. He told Anderson he had really believed for a while he was going crazy. On the fourth day of this, Gard had even identified the call letters of the station he was receiving: WZON, one of Bangor\u2019s three AM radio stations. He had written down the names of three songs in a row and then called the station to see if they had indeed played those songs\u2014plus ads for Sing\u2019s Polynesian Restaurant, Village Subaru, and the Bird Museum in Bar Harbor. They had.

On the fifth day, he said, the signal started to fade, and two days later it was gone entirely.

\u201cIt was that damned skull plate,\u201d he had told her, rapping his fist gently on the scar by his left temple. \u201cNo doubt about it. I\u2019m sure thousands would laugh, but in my own mind I\u2019m completely sure.\u201d

If someone else had told her the story, Anderson would have believed she was having her leg pulled, but Jim hadn\u2019t been kidding\u2014you looked in his eyes and you knew he wasn\u2019t.

Big storms had big power.

Lightning flared in a blue sheet, giving Anderson a shutter-click of what she had come to think of\u2014as her neighbors did\u2014as her dooryard. She saw the truck, with the first drops of rain on its windshield; the short dirt driveway; the mailbox with its flag down and tucked securely against its aluminum side; the writhing trees. Thunder exploded a bare moment later, and Peter jumped against her, whining. The lights went out. They didn\u2019t bother dimming or flickering or messing around; they went out all at once, completely. They went out with authority.

Anderson reached for the lantern\u2014and then her hand stopped.

There was a green spot on the far wall, just to the right of Uncle Frank\u2019s Welsh dresser. It bobbed up two inches, moved left, then right. It disappeared for a moment and then came back. Anderson\u2019s dream recurred with all the eerie power of d\u00e9j\u00e0 vu.<\/p>\n

She thought again of the lantern in Poe\u2019s story, but mixed in this time was another memory: The War of the Worlds.<\/p>\n

The Martian heat-ray, raining green death on Hammersmith.

She turned toward Peter, hearing the tendons in her neck creak like dirty door hinges, knowing what she was going to see. The light was coming from Peter\u2019s eye. His left eye. It glared with the witchy green light of St. Elmo\u2019s fire drifting over a swamp after a still, muggy day.

No … not the eye.<\/p>\n

It was the cataract<\/p>\n

that was glowing … at least, what remained of the cataract. It had gone back noticeably even from that morning at the vet\u2019s office. That side of Peter\u2019s face was lit with a lurid green light, making him look like a comic-book monstrosity.

Her first impulse was to get away from Peter, dive out of the chair and simply run … … but this was<\/p>\n

Peter, after all. And Peter was scared to death already. If she deserted him, Peter would be terrified.

Thunder cracked in the black. This time both of them jumped. Then the rain came in a great sighing sheetlike rush. Anderson looked back at the wall across the room again, at the green splotch bobbing and weaving there. She was reminded of times she had lain in bed as a child, using the watchband of her Timex to play a similar spot off the wall by moving her wrist.

And by the way, what\u2019s it doing to you, Bobbi?

Green sunken fire in Peter\u2019s eye, taking away the cataract. Eating it. She looked again, and had to restrain herself from jerking back when Peter licked her hand.

That night Bobbi Anderson slept hardly at all.
<\/p>\n


4.<\/span>

THE DIG, CONTINUED<\/span>

<\/p>\n

1<\/span>
When Anderson finally woke up, it was almost ten A.M. and most of the lights in the place were on\u2014Central Maine Power had gotten its shit together again, it seemed. She walked around the place in her socks, turning off lights, and then looked out the front window. Peter was on the porch. Anderson let him in and looked closely at his eye. She could remember her terror of the night before, but in this morning\u2019s bright summer daylight, terror had been supplanted by fascination. Anyone<\/p>\n

would have been scared, she thought, seeing something like that in the dark, with the power out, and a thunderstorm stomping the earth and the sky outside.

Why in hell didn\u2019t Etheridge see this?

But that was easy. The dials of radium watches glow in the day as well as in the dark; you just can\u2019t see the glow in bright light. She was a little surprised she had missed the green glow in Peter\u2019s eye on the previous nights, but hardly flabbergasted … after all, it had taken her a couple of days to even realize the cataract was shrinking. And yet … Etheridge had been close,<\/p>\n

hadn\u2019t he? Etheridge had been right in there with the old ophthalmoscope, looking into Peter\u2019s eye.

He had agreed with Anderson that the cataract was shrinking … but hadn\u2019t mentioned any glow, green or otherwise.

Maybe he saw it and decided to unsee it. The way he saw Peter was looking younger and decided he didn\u2019t see that. Because he didn\u2019t want to see that.

There was a part of her that didn\u2019t like the new vet a whole hell of a lot; she supposed it was because she had liked old Doc Daggett so much and had made that foolish (but apparently unavoidable) assumption that Daggett would be around as long as she and Peter were. But it was a silly reason to feel hostility toward the old man\u2019s replacement, and even if Etheridge had failed (or refused) to see Peter\u2019s apparent age regression, that didn\u2019t change the fact that he seemed a perfectly competent vet.

A cataract that glowed green … she didn\u2019t think he would have ignored something like that.

Which led her to the conclusion that the green glow hadn\u2019t been there for Etheridge to see.

At least, not right away.

There hadn\u2019t been any big hooraw right away, either, had there? Not when they came in. Not during the exam. Only when they were getting ready to go out.

Had Peter\u2019s eye started to glow then?

Anderson poured Gravy Train into Peter\u2019s dish and stood with her left hand under the tap, waiting for the water to come in warm so she could wet it down. The wait kept getting longer and longer. Her water heater was slow, balky, sadly out of date. Anderson had been meaning to have it replaced\u2014would certainly have to do so before cold weather\u2014but the only plumber in either Haven or the rural towns to Haven\u2019s immediate north and south was a rather unpleasant fellow named Delbert Chiles, who always looked at her as if he knew exactly<\/p>\n

what she would look like with her clothes off (not much,<\/p>\n

his eyes said, but Iguess it\u2019d do in a pinch)<\/p>\n

and always wanted to know if Anderson was \u201cwriting any new books lately.\u201d Chiles liked to tell her that he could have been a damned good writer himself, but he had too much energy and \u201cnot enough glue on the seat of my pants, get me?\u201d The last time she\u2019d been forced to call him had been when the pipes burst in the minus-twenties cold snap winter before last. After he set things to rights, he had asked her if she would like \u201cto go steppin\u201d sometime. Anderson declined politely, and Chiles tipped her a wink that aspired to worldly wisdom and made it almost to informed vacuity. \u201cYou don\u2019t know what you\u2019re missin, sweetie,\u201d he said. I\u2019m pretty sure I do, which is why I said no<\/p>\n

had come to her lips, but she said nothing\u2014as little as she liked him, she had known she might need Chiles again sometime. Why was it the really good zingers only came immediately to mind in real life when you didn\u2019t dare use them?

You could do something about that hot-water heater, Bobbi,<\/p>\n

a voice in her mind spoke up, one that she couldn\u2019t identify. A stranger\u2019s<\/p>\n

voice in her head? Oh golly, should she call the cops? But you could,<\/p>\n

the voice insisted. All you\u2019d need to do would be\u2014

But then the water started to come in warm\u2014tepid, anyway\u2014and she forgot about the water heater. She stirred the Gravy Train, then set it down and watched Peter eat. He was showing a much better appetite these days.

Ought to check his teeth, she thought. Maybe you can go back to Gaines Meal. A penny saved is a penny earned, and the American reading public is not exactly beating a path to your door, babe. And<\/p>\n

\u2014

And exactly when had<\/p>\n

the uproar in the clinic started?

Anderson thought about this carefully. She couldn\u2019t be completely sure, but the more she thought about it the more it seemed that it might have been\u2014not for sure, but might<\/p>\n

have been\u2014right after Dr. Etheridge finished examining Peter\u2019s cataract and put down the ophthalmoscope.

Attend, Watson,<\/p>\n

the voice of Sherlock Holmes suddenly spoke up in the quick, almost urgent speech rhythms of Basil Rathbone. The eye glows. No<\/p>\n

… not the eye; the<\/p>\n

cataract glows. But Anderson does not observe it, although she should. Etheridge does not observe it, and he<\/p>\n

definitely should. May we say that the animals at the veterinary clinic do not become upset until Peter\u2019s cataract begins to glow … until, we might further theorize, the healing process has resumed? Possibly. That the glow is seen only when being seen is safe? Ah, Watson, that is an assumption as frightening as it is unwarranted. Because that would indicate some sort of\u2014

\u2014some sort of intelligence.

Anderson didn\u2019t like where this was leading and tried to choke it off with the old reliable advice: Let it go.

This time it worked.

For a while.

<\/p>\n

2<\/span>
Anderson wanted to go out and dig some more.

Her forebrain didn\u2019t like that idea at all.

Her forebrain thought that idea sucked.

Leave it alone, Bobbi. It\u2019s dangerous.

Right.

And by the way, what\u2019s it doing to<\/p>\n

you?

Nothing she could see. But you couldn\u2019t see what cigarette smoke did to your lungs, either; that\u2019s why people went on smoking. It could be that her liver was rotting, that the chambers of her heart were silting up with cholesterol or that she had rendered herself barren. For all she knew her bone marrow might be producing outlaw white cells like mad right this minute. Why settle for an early period when you could have something really<\/p>\n

interesting like leukemia, Bobbi?

But she wanted to dig it up just the same.

This urge, simple and elemental, had nothing to do with her forebrain. It came baking up from someplace deeper inside. It had all the earmarks of some physical craving\u2014for salt, for some coke or heroin or cigarettes or coffee. Her forebrain supplied logic; this other part supplied an almost incoherent imperative: Dig on it, Bobbi, it\u2019s okay, dig on it, dig on it, shit, why not dig on it awhile more, you know you want to know what it is, so dig on it till you see what it is, dig dig dig\u2014

She was able to turn the voice off by conscious effort and would then realize fifteen minutes later she had been listening to it again, as if to a Delphic oracle.

You\u2019ve got to tell somebody what you\u2019ve found.

Who? The police? Huh-uh. No way. Or\u2014

Or who?

She was in her garden, madly weeding … a junkie in withdrawal.

\u2014or anyone in authority,<\/p>\n

her mind finished.

Her right-brain supplied Anne\u2019s sarcastic laughter, as she had known it would … but the laughter didn\u2019t have as much force as she had feared. Like a good many of her generation, Anderson didn\u2019t put a great deal of stock in \u201clet the authorities handle it.\u201d Her distrust in the way the authorities handled things had begun at the age of thirteen, in Utica. She had been sitting on the sofa in their living room with Anne on one side and her mother on the other. She had been eating a hamburger and watching the Dallas police escort Lee Harvey Oswald across an underground parking garage. There were lots of Dallas police. So many, in fact, that the TV announcer was telling the country that someone had shot Oswald before all those police\u2014all those people in authority\u2014seemed to have the slightest inkling something had gone wrong, let alone what it was.

So far as she could tell, the Dallas police had done such a good job protecting John F. Kennedy and Lee Harvey Oswald that they had been put in charge of the summer race riots two years later, and then the war in Viet Nam. Other assignments followed: handling the oil embargo ten years after the Kennedy assassination, the negotiations to secure the release of the American hostages at the embassy in Tehran, and, when it became clear that the ragheads were not going to listen to the voice of reason and authority, Jimmy Carter had sent the Dallas police in to rescue those pore fellers\u2014after all, authorities who had handled that Kent State business with such coolheaded aplomb could surely be counted upon to perform the sort of job those Mission: Impossible<\/p>\n

guys did every week. Well, the old Dallas police had had a spot of tough luck on that one, but by and large, they had the situation under control. All you had to do was look at how damned orderly<\/p>\n

the world situation had become in the years since a man in a strappy T-shirt with Vitalis on his thinning hair and fried-chicken grease under his fingernails had blown out a President\u2019s brains as he sat in the back seat of a Lincoln rolling down the street of a Texas cow town.

I\u2019ll tell Jim Gardener. When he gets back. Gard\u2019ll know what to do, how to handle it. He\u2019ll have some ideas, anyway.

Anne\u2019s voice: You\u2019re going to ask a certified loony for advice. Great.

He\u2019s not a loony. Just a little bit weird.

Yeah, arrested at the last Seabrook demonstration with a loaded .45 in his backpack. That\u2019s weird, all right.

Anne, shut up.

She weeded. All that morning in the hot sun she weeded, the back of her T-shirt wet with sweat, last year\u2019s scarecrow wearing the hat she usually put on to keep the sun off.

After lunch she lay down to take a nap and couldn\u2019t sleep. Everything kept going through her mind, and that stranger\u2019s voice never shut up. Dig on it, Bobbi, it\u2019s okay, dig on it\u2014

Until at last she did<\/p>\n

get up, grabbed the crowbar, spade, and shovel, and set out for the woods. At the far end of her field she paused, forehead grooved in thought, and came back for her pickax. Peter was on the porch. He looked up briefly but made no move to come with Anderson.

Anderson was not really surprised.

<\/p>\n

3<\/span>
So about twenty minutes later she stood above it, looking down the forested slope to the trench she had begun in the ground, freeing what she now believed was a very tiny section of an extraterrestrial spacecraft. Its gray hull was as solid as a wrench or a screwdriver, denying dreams and vapors and supposings; it was there.<\/p>\n

The dirt she had thrown to either side, moist and black and forest-secret, was now a dark brown\u2014still damp from last night\u2019s rain.

Going down the slope, her foot crunched on something that sounded like newspaper. It wasn\u2019t newspaper; it was a dead sparrow. Twenty feet further down was a dead crow, feet pointed comically skyward like a dead bird in a cartoon. Anderson paused, looked around, and saw the bodies of three other birds\u2014another crow, a bluejay, and a scarlet tanager. No marks. Just dead. And no flies around any of them.

She reached the trench and dropped her tools on the bank. The trench was muddy. She stepped in nevertheless, her workshoes squashing in the mud. She bent down and could see smooth gray metal going into the earth, a puddle standing on one side.

What are you?

She put her hand on it. That vibration sank into her skin and seemed for a moment to go all through her. Then it stopped.

Anderson turned and put her hand on her shovel, feeling its smooth wood, slightly warmed by the sun. She was vaguely aware that she could hear no forest noises, none at all … no birds singing, no animals crashing through the undergrowth and away from the smell of a human being. She was more sharply aware of the smells: peaty earth, pine needles, bark and sap.

A voice inside her\u2014very deep inside, not coming from the right of her brain but perhaps from the very root of her mind\u2014screamed in terror.

Something\u2019s happening, Bobbi,<\/p>\n

something is happening right NOW. Get out of here dead chuck dead birds Bobbi please please<\/p>\n

PLEASE\u2014

Her hand tightened on the shovel\u2019s handle and she saw it again as she had sketched it\u2014the gray leading edge of something titanic in the earth.

Her period had started again, but that was all right; she had put a pad in the crotch of her panties even before she went out to weed the garden. A Maxi. And there were half a dozen more in her pack, weren\u2019t there? Or was it more like a dozen?

She didn\u2019t know, and it didn\u2019t matter. Not even discovering some part of her had known she would end up here in spite of whatever foolish conceptions of free will the rest of her mind might possess disturbed her. A shining sort of peace had filled her. Dead animals … periods that stopped and started again … arriving prepared even after you had assured yourself the decision had not yet been taken … these were small things, smaller than small, a whole lot of boolsheet. She would just dig for a while, dig on this sucker, see if there was anything but smooth metal skin to see. Because everything\u2014

\u201cEverything\u2019s fine,\u201d Bobbi Anderson said in the unnatural stillness, and then she began to dig.
<\/p>\n


5.<\/span>

GARDENER TAKES A FALL<\/span>

<\/p>\n

1<\/span>
While Bobbi Anderson was tracing a titanic shape with a compass and thinking the unthinkable with a brain more numbed with exhaustion than she knew, Jim Gardener was doing the only work he could these days. This time he was doing it in Boston. The poetry reading on June 25th was at B.U. That<\/p>\n

went all right. The twenty-sixth was an off-day. It was also the day that Gardener stumbled\u2014only \u201cstumble\u201d didn\u2019t really describe what happened, unfortunately. It was no minor matter like snagging your foot under a root while you were walking in the woods. It was a fall<\/p>\n

that he took, one long fucking fall,<\/p>\n

like taking a no-expenses-paid bone-smasher of a tumble down a long flight of stairs. Stairs?<\/p>\n

Shit, he had almost fallen off the face of the earth.

The fall started in his hotel room; it ended on the breakwater at Arcadia Beach, New Hampshire, eight days later.

Bobbi wanted to dig; Gard woke up on the morning of the twenty-sixth wanting to drink.

He knew there was no such thing as a \u201cpartially arrested alcoholic.\u201d You were either drinking or you weren\u2019t. He wasn\u2019t drinking now, and that was good, but there had always been long periods when he didn\u2019t even think<\/p>\n

about booze. Months, sometimes. He would drop into a meeting once in a while (if two weeks went by in which Gard didn\u2019t attend an AA meeting, he felt uneasy\u2014the way he felt if he spilled the salt and didn\u2019t toss some over his shoulder) and stand up and say, \u201cHi, my name\u2019s Jim and I\u2019m an alcoholic.\u201d But when the urge was absent, it didn\u2019t feel like the truth. During these periods, he wasn\u2019t actually dry; he could and did drink\u2014drink,<\/p>\n

that was, as opposed to boozing. A couple of cocktails around five, if he was at a faculty function or a faculty dinner party. Just that and no more. Or he could call Bobbi Anderson and ask if she\u2019d like to come over to go out for a couple of cold ones and it was fine. No sweat.

Then there would come a morning like this when he would wake up wanting all the booze in the world. This seemed to be an actual<\/p>\n

thirst, a physical thing\u2014it made him think of those cartoons Virgil Partch used to do in the Saturday Evening<\/p>\n

Post, the ones where some funky old prospector is always crawling across the desert, his tongue hanging out, looking for a waterhole.

All he could do when the urge came on him was fight it off\u2014stand it off, try to earn a draw. Sometimes it was actually better to be in a place like Boston when this happened, because you could go to a meeting every night\u2014every four hours, if that was what it took. After three or four days, it would go away.

Usually.

He would, he thought, just wait it out. Sit in his room and watch movies on cable TV and charge them to room service. He had spent the eight years since his divorce and severance from college teaching as a Full-Time Poet … which meant he had come to live in an odd little subsociety where barter was usually more important than money.

He had traded poems for food: on one occasion a birthday sonnet for a farmer\u2019s wife in exchange for three shopping bags of new potatoes. \u201cGoddam thing better rhyme, too,\u201d the farmer had said, fixing a stony eye upon Gardener. \u201cReal<\/p>\n

poimes rhyme.\u201d

Gardener, who could take a hint (especially when his stomach was concerned), composed a sonnet so filled with exuberant masculine rhymes that he burst into gales of laughter after scanning the second draft. He called Bobbi, read it to her, and they both howled. It was even better out loud. Out loud it sounded like a love letter from Dr. Seuss. But he hadn\u2019t needed Bobbi to point out to him that it was still an honest piece of work, jangly but not condescending.

On another occasion, a small press in West Minot agreed to publish a book of his poems (this had been in early 1983 and was, in fact, the last book of poems Gardener had published), and offered half a cord of wood as an advance. Gardener took it.

\u201cYou should have held out for three-quarters of a cord,\u201d Bobbi told him that night as they sat in front of her stove, feet up on the fender, smoking cigarettes as a wind shrieked fresh snow across the fields and into the trees. \u201cThose\u2019re good poems. There\u2019s a lot of them, too.\u201d

\u201cI know,\u201d Gardener said, \u201cbut I was cold. Half a cord\u2019ll get me through until spring.\u201d He dropped her a wink. \u201cBesides, the guy\u2019s from Connecticut. I don\u2019t think he knew most of it was ash.\u201d

She dropped her feet to the floor and stared at him. \u201cYou kidding?\u201d

\u201cNope.\u201d

She began to giggle and he kissed her soundly and later took her to bed and they slept together like spoons. He remembered waking up once, listening to the wind, thinking of all the dark and rushing cold outside and all the warmth of this bed, filled with their peaceful heat under two quilts, and wishing it could be like this forever\u2014only nothing ever was. He had been raised to believe God was love, but you had to wonder how loving a God could be when He made men and women smart enough to land on the moon but stupid enough to have to learn there was no such thing as forever over and over again.

The next day Bobbi had again offered money and Gardener again refused. He wasn\u2019t exactly rolling in dough, but he made out. And he couldn\u2019t help the little spark of anger he felt in spite of her matter-of-fact tone. \u201cDon\u2019t you know who\u2019s supposed to get the money after a night in bed?\u201d he asked.

She stuck out her chin. \u201cYou calling me a whore?\u201d

He smiled. \u201cYou need a pimp? There\u2019s money in it, I hear.\u201d

\u201cYou want breakfast, Gard, or do you want to piss me off?\u201d

\u201cHow about both?\u201d

\u201cNo,\u201d she said, and he saw she was really mad\u2014Christ, he was getting worse and worse at seeing things like that, and it used to be so easy. He hugged her. I was only kidding, couldn\u2019t she see that?<\/p>\n

he thought. She always<\/p>\n

used to be able to tell when I was kidding.<\/p>\n

But of course she hadn\u2019t known he was kidding because he hadn\u2019t been. If he believed different, the only one getting kidded was himself. He had been trying to hurt her because she\u2019d embarrassed him. And it wasn\u2019t her offer that had been stupid; it was his embarrassment. He had more or less chosen the life he was living, hadn\u2019t he?

And he didn\u2019t want to hurt Bobbi, didn\u2019t want to drive Bobbi away. The bed part was fine, but the bed part wasn\u2019t the really important part. The really important part was that Bobbi Anderson was a friend, and something scary seemed to be happening just lately. How fast he seemed to be running out of friends. That was pretty scary, all right.

Running out of friends? Or running them out? Which is it, Gard?

At first hugging her was like hugging an ironing board and he was afraid she would try to pull away and he would make the mistake of trying to hold on, but she finally softened.

\u201cI want breakfast,\u201d he said. \u201cAnd to say I\u2019m sorry.\u201d

\u201cIt\u2019s all right,\u201d she said, and turned away before he could see her face\u2014but her voice held that dry briskness that meant she was either crying or near it. \u201cI keep forgetting it\u2019s bad manners to offer money to Yankees.\u201d

Well, he didn\u2019t know if it was bad manners or not, but he would not take money from Bobbi. Never had, never would.

The New England Poetry Caravan, however, was a different matter.

Grab that chicken, son,<\/p>\n

Ron Cummings, who needed money about as much as the pope needed a new hat, would have said. The bitch is too slow to run and too fat<\/p>\n

to pass up.

The New England Poetry Caravan paid cash. Coin of the realm for poetry\u2014two hundred up front and two hundred at the end of the tour. The word made flesh, you might say. But hard cash, it was understood, was only part of the deal.

The rest was THE TAB.

While you were on tour, you took advantage of every opportunity. You got your meals from room service, your hair cut in the hotel barbershop if there was one, brought your extra pair of shoes (if you had one) and put them<\/p>\n

out one night instead of your regulars so you could get the extras shined up.

There were the in-room movies, movies you never got a chance to see in a theater, because theaters persisted in wanting money for much the same thing poets, even the very good ones, were for some reason supposed to provide for free or next to it\u2014three bags of spuds = one (1) sonnet, for instance. There was a room charge for the movies, of course, but what of that? You didn\u2019t even have to put them on THE TAB; some computer did it automatically, and all Gardener had to say on the subject was God bless and keep THE TAB, and bring those fuckers on!<\/p>\n

He watched everything,<\/p>\n

from Emmanuelle in New York<\/p>\n

(finding the part where the girl flogs the guy\u2019s doggy under a table at Windows on the World particularly artistic and uplifting; it certainly uplifted part of him, anyway) to Indiana Jones and the Temple of Doom<\/p>\n

to Rainbow Brite and the Star-Stealer.

And that\u2019s what I\u2019m going to do now,<\/p>\n

he thought, rubbing his throat and thinking about the taste of good aged whiskey. EXACTLY what I\u2019m going to do. Just sit here and watch them<\/p>\n

all over again, even<\/p>\n

Rainbow Brite. And for lunch I\u2019m going to order three bacon cheeseburgers and eat one cold at three o\u2019clock. Maybe skip<\/p>\n

Rainbow Brite and take a nap. Stay in tonight. Go to bed early. And stand it off.

Bobbi Anderson tripped over a three-inch tongue of metal protruding from the earth.

Jim Gardener tripped over Ron Cummings.

Different objects, same result.

For want of a nail.

Ron popped in around the same time that, some two hundred and ten miles away, Anderson and Peter were finally getting home from their less-than-normal trip to the vet\u2019s. Cummings suggested they go down to the hotel bar and have a drink or ten.

\u201cOr,\u201d Ron continued brightly, \u201cwe could just skip the foreplay and get shitfaced.\u201d

If he had put it more delicately, Gard might have been okay. Instead, he found himself in the bar with Ron Cummings, raising a jolly Jack Daniel\u2019s to his lips and telling himself the old one about how he could choke it off when he really wanted to.

Ron Cummings was a good, serious poet who just happened to have money practically falling out of his asshole … or so he often told people. \u201cI am my own de\u2019 Medici,\u201d he would say; \u201cI have money practically falling out of my asshole.\u201d His family had been in textiles for roughly nine hundred years and owned most of southern New Hampshire. They thought Ron was crazy, but because he was the second son, and because the first one was not<\/p>\n

crazy (i.e., uninterested in textiles), they let Ron do what he wanted to do, which was write poems, read poems, and drink almost constantly. He was a narrow young man with a TB face. Gardener had never seen him eat anything but beer-nuts and Goldfish crackers. To his dubious credit, he had no idea of Gardener\u2019s own problem with booze … or the fact that he had once come very close to killing his wife while drunk.

\u201cOkay,\u201d Gardener said. \u201cI\u2019m up for it. Let\u2019s get \u2019faced.\u201d

After a few in the hotel bar, Ron suggested that a couple of smart fellers like them could find a place with entertainment a tad more exciting than the piped-in Muzak drifting down from the overhead speakers. \u201cI think my heart can take it,\u201d Ron said. \u201cI mean, I\u2019m not sure, but\u2014\u201d

\u201c\u2014God hates a coward,\u201d Gardener finished.

Ron cackled, clapped him on the back, and called for THE TAB. He signed it with a flourish and then added a generous tip from his money clip. \u201cLet\u2019s boogie, m\u2019man.\u201d And off they went.

The late-afternoon sun lanced Gardener\u2019s eyes like glass spears and it suddenly occurred to him that this might be a bad idea.

\u201cListen, Ron,\u201d he said, \u201cI think maybe I\u2019ll just\u2014\u201d

Cummings clapped him on the shoulder, formerly pale cheeks flushed, formerly watery blue eyes blazing (to Gard, Cummings now looked rather like Toad of Toad Hall after the acquisition of his motor-car), and cajoled: \u201cDon\u2019t crap out on me now, Jim! Boston lies before us, so various and new, glistening like the fresh ejaculate of a young boy\u2019s first wetdream\u2014\u201d

Gardener burst into helpless gales of laughter.

\u201cThat\u2019s more like the Gardener we\u2019ve all come to know and love,\u201d Ron said, cackling himself.

\u201cGod hates a coward,\u201d Gard said. \u201cHail us a cab, Ronnie.\u201d

He saw it then: the funnel in the sky. Big and black and getting closer. Soon it was going to touch down and carry him away.

Not to Oz, though.

A cab pulled over to the curb. They got in. The driver asked them where they wanted to go.

\u201cOz,\u201d Gardener muttered.

Ron cackled. \u201cWhat he means is someplace where they drink fast and dance faster. Think you can manage that?\u201d

\u201cOh, I think so,\u201d the driver said, and pulled out.

Gardener draped an arm around Ron\u2019s shoulders and cried: \u201cLet the wild rumpus start!\u201d

\u201cI\u2019ll drink to that,\u201d Ron said.

<\/p>\n

2<\/span>
Gardener awoke the next morning fully dressed in a tubful of cold water. His best set of clothes\u2014which he\u2019d had the misfortune to be wearing when he and Ron Cummings set sail the day before\u2014were bonding themselves slowly to his skin. He looked at his fingers and saw they were very white and very pruny. Fishfingers. He\u2019d been here for a while, apparently. The water might even have been hot when he climbed in. He didn\u2019t remember.

He opened the tub drain. Saw a bottle of bourbon standing on the toilet seat. It was half-full, its surface bleary with some sort of grease. He picked it up. The grease smelled vaguely of fried chicken. Gardener was more interested in the aroma coming from inside<\/p>\n

the bottle. Don\u2019t do this, he thought, but the neck of the bottle was rapping against his teeth before the thought was even half-finished. He had a drink. Blacked out again.

When he came to, he was standing naked in his bedroom with the phone to his ear and the vague idea that he had just finished dialing a number. Whose? He had no idea until Cummings answered. Cummings sounded even worse than Gardener felt. Gardener would have sworn this was impossible.

\u201cHow bad was it?\u201d Gardener heard himself ask. It was always this way when he was in the grip of the cyclone; even when he was conscious, everything seemed to have the gray grainy texture of a tabloid photograph, and he never seemed to exactly be inside<\/p>\n

of himself. A lot of the time he seemed to be floating above his own head, like a kid\u2019s silvery Puffer balloon. \u201cHow much trouble did we get into?\u201d

\u201cTrouble?\u201d Cummings repeated, and then fell silent. At least Gardener thought<\/p>\n

he was thinking. Hoped<\/p>\n

he was thinking. Or maybe dreaded the idea. He waited, his hands very cold. \u201cNo trouble,\u201d Cummings said at last, and Gard relaxed a little. \u201cExcept for my head, that is. I got my head in plenty<\/p>\n

of trouble. Jee-zus!<\/p>\n

\u201d

\u201cYou sure? Nothing?<\/p>\n

Nothing at all?\u201d

He was thinking of Nora.

Shot your wife, uh?<\/p>\n

a voice spoke up suddenly in his mind\u2014the voice of the deputy with the comic book. Good fucking deal.

\u201cWe-ell …\u201d Cummings said reflectively, and then stopped.

Gardener\u2019s hand clenched tight on the phone again.

\u201cWell what?\u201d<\/p>\n

Suddenly the lights in the room were too bright. Like the sun when they had stepped out of the hotel late yesterday afternoon.

You did something. You had another fucking blackout and did another stupid thing. Or crazy thing. Or horrible thing. When are you going to learn to leave it alone? Or can you learn?

An exchange from an old movie clanged stupidly into his mind.

Evil El Comandante:<\/p>\n

Tomorrow before daybreak, se\u00f1or,<\/p>\n

you will be dead! You have seen the sun for the last time!

Brave Americano:<\/p>\n

Yeah, but you\u2019ll be bald for the rest of your life.

\u201cWhat was it?\u201d he asked Ron. \u201cWhat did I do?\u201d

\u201cYou got into an argument with some guys at a place called the Stone Country Bar and Grille,\u201d Cummings said. He laughed a little. \u201cOw! Christ, when it hurts to laugh, you know<\/p>\n

you abused yourself. You remember the Stone Country Bar and Grille and them thar good ole boys, James, my dear?\u201d

He said he didn\u2019t. Really straining, he could remember a place called Smith Brothers. The sun had just been going down in a kettle of blood, and this being late June, that meant it had been … what? eight-thirty? quarter of nine? about five hours after he and Ron had gotten started, give or take. He could remember the sign outside bore the likeness of the famous coughdrop siblings. He could remember arguing furiously about Wallace Stevens with Cummings, shouting to be heard over the juke, which had been thundering out something by John Fogerty. That was where the last jagged edges of memory came to a halt.

\u201cIt was the place with the WAYLON JENNINGS FOR PRESIDENT bumper-sticker over the bar,\u201d Cummings said. \u201cThat refresh the old noggin?\u201d

\u201cNo,\u201d Gardener said miserably.

\u201cWell, you got into an argument with a couple of the good ole boys. Words were passed. These words grew first warm and then hot. A punch was thrown.\u201d

\u201cBy me?\u201d Gardener\u2019s voice was now only dull.

\u201cBy you,\u201d Cummings agreed cheerfully. \u201cAt which point we flew through the air with the greatest of ease, landing on the sidewalk. I thought we got off pretty cheap, to tell you the truth. You had them frothing, Jim.\u201d

\u201cWas it about Seabrook or Chernobyl?\u201d

\u201cShit, you do<\/p>\n

remember!\u201d

\u201cIf I remembered, I wouldn\u2019t be asking you which one it was.\u201d

\u201cAs a matter of fact, it was both.\u201d Cummings hesitated. \u201cAre you all right, Gard? You sound real low.\u201d

Yeah? Well, actually, Ron, I\u2019m way<\/p>\n

up. Up in the cyclone. Going around and aroundand up and down, and where it ends nobody knows.

\u201cI\u2019m okay.\u201d

\u201c\u2018That\u2019s good. One hopes you know who you have to thank for it.\u201d

\u201cYou, maybe?\u201d

\u201cNone other. Man, I landed on that sidewalk like a kid hitting the ground the first time he comes off the end of a slide. I can\u2019t quite see my ass in the mirror, but that\u2019s probably a good thing. I bet it looks like a Day-Glo Grateful Dead poster from sixty-nine. But you wanted to go back in and talk about how all the kids around Chernobyl were gonna be dead of leukemia in five years. You wanted to talk about how some guys almost blew up Arkansas looking for faulty wiring with a candle in a nuclear-power plant. You said they caught the place on fire. Me, I\u2019d bet my watch\u2014and it\u2019s a Rolex\u2014that they were Snopeses from Em-Eye-Double-Ess-Eye-Pee-Pee-Eye. Only way I could get you into a cab was by telling you we\u2019d come back later and bust heads. I sweet-talked you up to your room and started the tub for you. You said you were all right. You said you were going to take a bath and then call some guy named Bobby.\u201d

\u201cThe guy\u2019s a girl,\u201d Gardener said absently. He was rubbing at his right temple with his free hand.

\u201cGood-looking?\u201d

\u201cPretty. No knockout.\u201d An errant thought, nonsensical but perfectly concrete\u2014Bobbi\u2019s in trouble\u2014<\/p>\n

kicked across his mind the way an errant billiard ball will roll across the clean green felt of a pool table. Then it was gone.

<\/p>\n

3<\/span>
He walked slowly over to a chair and sat down, now massaging both temples. The nukes. Of course it had been the nukes. What else? If it wasn\u2019t Chernobyl it was Seabrook, and if it wasn\u2019t Seabrook it was Three-Mile Island and if it wasn\u2019t Three-Mile Island it was Maine Yankee in Wiscasset or what could have happened at the Hanford Plant in Washington State if someone hadn\u2019t happened to notice, just in the nick of time, that their used core-rods, stored in an unlined ditch outside, were getting ready to blow sky-high.

How many nicks of time could there be?

Spent fuel rods that were stacking up in big hot piles. They thought the Curse of King Tut was bad? Brother! Wait until some twenty-fifth-century archaeologist dug up a load of this<\/p>\n

shit! You tried to tell people the whole thing was a lie,<\/p>\n

nothing but a baldfaced naked lie,<\/p>\n

that nuclear-generated power was eventually going to kill millions and render huge tracts of land sterile and unlivable. What you got back was a blank stare. You talked to people who had lived through one administration after another in which their elected officials told one lie after another, then lied about the lies,<\/p>\n

and when those<\/p>\n

lies were found out the liars said: Oh jeez, I forgot, sorry\u2014 and since they forgot, the people who elected them behaved like Christians and forgave.<\/p>\n

You couldn\u2019t believe there were so fucking many<\/p>\n

of them willing to do that until you remembered what P. T. Barnum said about the extraordinarily high birth rate of suckers. They looked you square in the face when you tried to tell them the truth and informed you that you were full of shit, the American government didn\u2019t tell lies, not telling lies was what made America great, Oh dear Father, here\u2019s the facts, I did it with my little ax, I can\u2019t keep silent for it was I, and come what may, I cannot tell a lie.<\/p>\n

When you tried to talk to them, they looked at you as if you were babbling in a foreign language. It had been eight years since he had almost killed his wife, and three since he and Bobbi had been arrested at Seabrook, Bobbi on the general charge of illegal demonstration, Gard on a much more specific one\u2014possession of a concealed and unlicensed handgun. The others paid a fine and got out. Gardener did two months. His lawyer told him he was lucky. Gardener asked his lawyer if he knew he was sitting on a time bomb and jerking his meat. His lawyer asked him if he had considered psychiatric help. Gardener asked his lawyer if he had ever considered getting stuffed.

But he had had sense enough not to attend any more demonstrations. That much, anyway. He kept away from them. They were poisoning him. When he got drunk, however, his mind\u2014whatever the booze had left of it\u2014returned obsessively to the subject of the reactors, the core-rods, the containments, the inability to slow down a runaway once it really got going\u2014

To the nukes, in other words.

When he got drunk, his heart got hot. The nukes. The goddam nukes. It was symbolic, yeah, okay, you didn\u2019t have to be Freud to figure that what he was really<\/p>\n

protesting was the reactor in his own heart. When it came to matters of restraint, James Gardener had a bad containment system. There was some technician inside who should have long since been fired. He sat and played with all the wrong switches. That guy wouldn\u2019t be really happy until Jim Gardener went China Syndrome.

The goddam fucking nukes.

Forget it.

He tried. For a start, he tried thinking about tonight\u2019s reading at Northeastern\u2014a fun-filled frolic that was being sponsored by a group that called itself the Friends of Poetry, a name which filled Gardener with fear and trembling. Groups with such names tended to be made up exclusively of women who called themselves ladies (most of them of a decidedly blue-haired persuasion). The ladies of the club tended to be a good deal more familiar with the works of Rod McKuen than those of John Berryman, Hart Crane, Ron Cummings, or that good old drunken blackout brawler and wife shooter James Eric Gardener.

Get out of here, Gard. Never mind the New England Poetry Caravan. Never mind Northeastern or the Friends of Poetry or the McCardle bitch. Get out of here right now before something bad happens. Something really bad. Because if you stay, something really bad will. There\u2019s blood on the moon.

But he was damned if he\u2019d go running back to Maine with his tail between his legs. Not him.

Besides, there was the bitch.

Patricia McCardle was her name, and if she wasn\u2019t one strutting world-class bitch, Gard had never met one.

She had a contract, and it specified no play, no pay.

\u201cJesus,\u201d Gardener said, and put a hand over his eyes, trying to shut away the growing headache, knowing there was only one kind of medicine that would do that, and also knowing it was exactly the sort of medicine that could bring that really bad thing on.

And also<\/p>\n

knowing that knowing would do no good at all. So after a while the booze started to flow and the cyclone started to blow.

Jim Gardener, now in free fall.

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Patricia McCardle was the New England Poetry Caravan\u2019s principal contributor and head ramrod. Her legs were long but skinny, her nose aristocratic but too bladelike to be considered attractive. Gard had once tried to imagine kissing her and had been horrified by the image which had risen, unbidden, in his mind: her nose not just sliding up his cheek but slicing it open like a razor blade. She had a high forehead, nonexistent breasts, and eyes as gray as a glacier on a cloudy day. She traced her ancestry back to the Mayflower.

Gardener had worked for her before and there had been trouble before. He had become part of the 1988 New England Poetry Caravan in rather grisly fashion … but the reason for his abrupt inclusion was no more unheard-of in the world of poetry than it was in those of jazz and rock and roll. Patricia McCardle had been left with a last-minute hole in her announced program because one of the six poets who had signed on for this summer\u2019s happy cruise had hung himself in his closet with his belt.

\u201cJust like Phil Ochs,\u201d Ron Cummings had said to Gardener as they sat near the back of the bus on the first day of the tour. He said it with a nervous bad-boy-at-the-back-of-the-classroom giggle. \u201cBut then, Bill Claughtsworth always was a derivative son of a bitch.\u201d

Patricia McCardle had gotten twelve reading dates and fairly good advances on a deal which, when stripped of all the high-flown rhetoric, boiled down to six poets for the price of one. Following Claughtsworth\u2019s suicide, she found herself with three days to find a publishing poet in a season when most publishing poets were booked solid (\u201cOr on permanent vacation like Silly Billy Claughtsworth,\u201d Cummings said, laughing rather uneasily).

Few if any of the booked groups would balk at paying the stipulated fee just because the Caravan happened to be short one poet\u2014to do such a thing would be in rawther shitty taste, particularly when one considered the reason<\/p>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n

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